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救命
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救命
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我的全部生活
My entire life,
都在处理一些重要事情
I've related my existence to material things.
不是因为我看重它们
Not because I value them
也不是因为我看重自己
or that I value myself for that matter,
而是我天性如此
but that's just how I'm wired.
从出生那年开始 我就一直想要辆车
You know, I always wanted a car from the year I was born.
感觉就像当我不停地向前迈进不可避免
Felt like it linked me to an unalterable past
又不确定的未来时
as I pushed forward ceaselessly
它把我与不可改变的过去联系在一起
to an unavoidably indeterminate future.
这辆车是1985年的别克君威
That car, 1985 Buick Regal Sedan.
但贝拉死了 所以我给这辆车起名叫贝拉
But Bella died, that's what I named her.
我把你介绍给布朗森
So, I introduce you to Bronson,
2005年庞蒂亚克大奖赛
2005 Pontiac Grand Prix,
以罪犯的名字命名 而不是演员
named after the criminal, not the actor.
不 不 不 不
No, no, no, no,
这不是唯物主义
it's not being materialistic.
你看 我看到了一些地方没有任何标志
You see, I see signs where there aren't any,
比如我小时候画的画
like the drawings I did as a child, for example.
在它们身上 我看到了预感 这就是为什么我要制造预感
In them, I see premonitions, that's why I make them.
它可以帮助我表达自己
It helps me express myself.
但更重要的是 它让我
But more importantly, it helps me,
理解自己
it helps me understand myself.
每次我开车的时候
Every time I get behind the wheel,
我不知道这会不会是布朗森的结局
I don't know if it'll be end of the line for Bronson,
我能不能离开
if I'll even get away.
现在我把它留给胜算定律
I just leave it to the Law of Odds now,
因为最终所有的事情
'cause eventually all things,
他们必须失败
they must fail.
这个引擎 就像我的心跳一样
This engine, it's a kin to my heartbeat.
好吧 他从哪儿来的?
Okay, where's he weave from?
这是莫 这是莫
This is Moe, this is Moe.
现在 我们不知道他要去哪里
We were current, we have no idea where he's going.
他的胳膊卡在门里了
His arm was stuck in the door,
恐怕他们闯进了我们的房间
and I'm afraid they broke into our room.
杀人自白
他们在给他做心肺复苏
They're doing CPR on him
你得跟我谈谈
and you've got to talk to me,
你得跟我谈谈
you have got to talk to me.
这很奇妙
It's fascinating,
因为道德在进化 这是一种进化
because morals, they evolve, it's an evolution.
道德规范的整个概念是一个活的文件
The whole idea of a code of ethics, it's a living document,
它由人类创造 由某个神任命
one that's created by men and ordained by some deity.
但它也是一套呼吸指南 它会改变
But it's a breathing set of guidelines and it changes.
总是在变 总是会变
Always has changed, always will.
这些呼吸准则是主观的
And these breathing set of guidelines are subjective,
人类历史上所有战争的起因
and the cause of all of human history's wars.
都是因为一个群体不赞成另一个群体 然后引起战争
One group doesn't approve of another group, and then boom!
你可以在微观或宏观层面上进行分析
And you can analyze this on micro or macro levels,
结果都是一样的 分歧随之而来
it's always the same, disagreement ensues.
根据法律的性质 根据信条
So by nature of that law, by that credo,
我是个犯法的人
I'm a law breaker.
在上帝或大多数人的上帝眼中 我是个罪人
In the eyes of God or most people's gods, I'm a sinner.
你看 当我照镜子时
You see, when I look in the mirror,
或者你现在看着我
or as you, you look at me right here right now,
当这个相机通过镜头捕捉我时
as this camera captures me through it's lens,
它看到了什么?
what does it see?
它看见一个人
It sees a man.
我只是一个人 我是个人
I'm merely a man, I'm man.
考虑到这在50年前 是被禁止的 也会让人皱眉头
Considering, it was forbidden and frowned upon 50 years ago.
妇女权利
Women's rights,
同性恋权利 种族不平等
gay rights, racial inequality,
那时人们会说些什么呢
what did people have to say then?
或者是几千年的文明
Or how about thousands of years of civility
一个宗教试图消灭另一个宗教
with one religion trying to eradicate another
以他们上帝的名义?
in the name of their god?
我并没有拿自己和那些东西做比较
I'm not comparing myself to any of that,
我很清楚地说 这些道德评价
I'm flat out stating that these moral evaluations,
它们每年 每天 都在变化
they change year to year, day to day.
这些都是这些解释的例子
These are all examples that these interpretations,
他们会变化
they change.
因此 我是你 你是我
So as a result, I am you and you are me,
从历史的角度来说
historically speaking.
我是一个产品 我是一种结果 我是改变
I'm a product, I'm a result, I'm change.
我对改变这个词很感兴趣
I'm intrigued by that word, change.
因为改变无处不在
Because people throw it around,
但并不是所有的改变都是好的 不是吗?
but not all change is good, is it?
有一种危险的感觉吗
Is there a sense of danger
因为...
because of the way that...
危险 危险只是对恐惧的预期
Well danger, danger is just the anticipation of fear.
恐惧是思想的产物
You see, fear is a product of the mind,
这是一门学科
it's a discipline,
一种自我生存的技巧
a self-survival technique.
人们害怕我 我知道
People, they fear me, I know that.
从他们的眼睛里 从他们的脸上 我看到了害怕
I see it in their eyes, I see it in their faces.
因此 我就好比危险 而他们就像是恐惧
As a result, I am the danger and they are the fear.
另一方面 就像邪恶一样
Like evil, on the other hand,
它有多种形式
it comes in many forms.
它用许多不同的画笔绘画
It paints with many different brushes.
我的刚好是一片碎玻璃
Mine happens to be a shattered glass
或者是一把前臂大小的刀
or a knife the size of your forearm.
我倾向于用粗笔画
And I have a tendency to paint in broad strokes.
这是相当简单的
That's fairly straightforward.
我们一个月可以做两到五份工作
We can do anywhere between two to five jobs a month,
取决于工作类型
depending on the job.
除此之外 都是一样的废话
Other than that, it's the same rigamarole,
当然 它只是每天在不同的地点发生变化
day in and day out, it just varies locations, of course.
你在这家公司工作过
You've worked with this company
- 6年? - 10年
- for six years? - 10,
到9月就10年了
it'll be 10 in September.
在这种情况下 你不能
In this shape, you can't.
这可是重体力劳动 不是吗?
It's a lot of physicality, isn't it?
你每天这样做一定很辛苦
You must get pretty shot doing this everyday.
你会习惯的
You get accustomed to it.
听着 我不想要一份必须带回家的工作
Look, I didn't want a job that I have to take home with me.
在我自己的时间里紧张和流汗 不用谢
Stress and sweating it out on my own time, no thanks.
在这里 我每周工作5天 也就是40个小时
Here, I work five days a week, 40 hours a week.
我付出劳动 然后得到报酬
I get paid for what I'm doing,
剩下的时间都是我的
and then the rest of the time is mine.
我认为人们放弃了
I think people only give up too muchc
生命中太多的东西
of their lives towards something
却忙于维持生计
that's really only designed to sustain.
如果他们喜欢自己的职业呢?
What if they like what they do professionally?
这个我有想过
I've conceived that.
但这是罕见的
But it's rare.
这就像挖坟墓找宝藏一样
It's like digging for a grave and finding treasure,
不会有结果的
it's not happening.
我们开始摄影的时候
Well, when we began principle photography
是在前一年的11月
in November of the prior year,
大约六个月后
and so, this was about six months after
我把埃利斯从纽约大学的电影摄影专业请了出来
I plucked Ellis out of N.Y.U. Cinematography Program.
在伪装下
It was under the guise of,
我们明确知道
and with the explicit understanding
诺埃尔在新新联邦监狱16年的刑期中
that Noel had served nine years of a 16-year term
已服刑9年
at Sing Sing Federal Penitentiary
罪名是一起与欲望有关的双重谋杀
for a lust-related double murder,
激情犯罪
the crime of passion stuff.
因为表现良好
Because of good behavior
和越来越积极的心理评估
and increasingly positive psychological evaluations,
他于2015年获释
he was released in 2015.
经过一个月的前期制作和两周的拍摄
After a month of pre-production and two weeks of filming,
埃利斯开始了一项迟来的研究
Ellis embarked on shamefully-belated research,
他一拖再拖的尽职调查显示
and his procrastinated due diligence revealed
诺埃尔从来没有去过新新
that Noel had never been at Sing Sing
或任何监狱
or any prison.
他从没被抓过
He'd never been caught,
也没有激情犯罪
and there was no crime of passion.
这是一连串的谋杀
This was a string of murders.
他觉醒了
He was a rouse.
所以我们和诺埃尔
So, we aired it out with Noel,
觉得错误信息
who felt just dreadful
很可怕
for the misinformation.
埃利斯和我得到了一个重要的教训
And Ellis and I were left with a substantial moral,
也就是道德和法律难题
ethical and a legal conundrum.
我们做出了选择
We made our choice.
所以你看 这是相当简单的事情
So, it's fairly simple stuff, you see.
是的 不 我现在明白了
Yes, no, I get it now.
我们随时都可以用它们
We want to use these whenever you want.
更多的电池 会需要更多的微SD卡
Any more batteries, need more micro SD cards,
任何事都不要犹豫 我们会处理的
anything, don't hesitate and we'll take care of it.
当卡片满了的时候
And when the card is full,
- 我要把它们交给你吗? - 是的 是的
- do I drop them off with you? - Yeah, yeah,
很好 太好了
that's fine, that's totally fine.
这里有五张备用的迷你卡
And you have five backup mini cards right here
以备不时之需
in case you need them.
只要小心别拍满了还没发现
Just be careful not to shoot over anything.
一旦卡满了
Once one card is full,
就把它取出来 换上一个空卡
just pop it out and put in a clean one.
这些在车里的卡
And these ones in the car,
- 和以前一样吗? - 是的
- they the same as before? - Yep.
你想什么时候打开就什么时候打开
Just turn them on when you want to,
当你不需要它们的时候 它们就会消失
and off when you don't need them.
哦 显然 把备份硬盘留在你的公寓里
Oh, and obviously, leave the backup hard drive safe
保存好
at your apartment.
这是一种以防万一的策略
That's a just-in-case maneuver,
我们有点神经质
we're mildly neurotic.
我们会每隔几天更新一次
And we'll update that every few days,
所以你会是一个骄傲的主人
so you will be the proud owner
因为我们为这部电影拍摄了每一个镜头
of every single item we shoot for this film.
你们真的想要完整的诺埃尔体验吗?
You guys really want the full Noel experience, huh?
想啊
We do.
我们也会送你一个支架
We also have this mount for you.
机身支架 你可以把相机放进去
The body mount, in that you can detach the camera to it,
这样你就不用用手了
and then you won't have to use your hands.
这让我有点吃惊
This sort of takes me back a little.
吃惊？
Takes you back?
是啊 除了我年轻的时候
Yeah, except when I was a young man
家境贫困
and things became difficult at home,
我沉浸在电影里
I immersed myself into cinema,
尤其是40年代和50年代的电影
the films of the 40s and 50s in particular.
我很喜欢他们的生活方式
I really loved their way of life,
说话方式 一切都很真实
their manner of speech, everything really.
作为副产品 我对编辑产生了兴趣
As a by-product, I became interested in editing.
这取决于你如何编辑一个故事
Depending on how you edit a narrative,
你真的可以操纵不同的观点
you really can manipulate different points of views.
但是 我从来没有尝试过
But, I never really got to try my hand at it,
- 所以 - 真的 很有趣
- so. - Really, how interesting.
我们不知道
We had no idea.
我最近买了一台笔记本电脑
I recently bought a MacBook
的目的是玩微电影应用程序
for the purpose of playing with the iMovie application.
但这种方式更有趣的是获得实际经验
But it's more fun this way to get the hands-on experience.
所以 任何沉思 任何想法 任何你能想到的
So, any musings, any thoughts, anything you can think of,
我们只是不想错过任何东西
we just don't want to miss anything
当我们不在的时候
when we're not around.
现在也是它的一部分吗?
This now is a part of it then?
什么都可以
Anything can be.
好吧 这取决于以后的表演过程
Well, it depends later on in the acting process.
对了 编辑
Right, editing.
一定要多关注你的...
Please pay heavy focus when you get...
哦 难耐的痒
Oh, the unscratchable itch.
是这样吗?
Is that right?
你是这么叫的吗?
Is that what you call it?
是的 我认为它有助于澄清一些
Yes, I think it helps clarify something
很难描述的事情
that's difficult to describe.
诺埃尔 我可以问一下吗
Noel, may I ask
有多少人知道你的活动?
how many people know about your activities?
只有你们两位先生
Just you two gentlemen.
你凭什么相信我们?
Well, what makes you trust us?
我的意思是 你当然会这样做
I mean, that's if you do, of course.
只要我需要 就相信你们
Trust you as far as I need to.
无论如何 到目前为止是的
So far, anyway.
这可能是一件好事 也可能不是
Which may or may not be a good thing.
也许
Meaning perhaps,
你想被抓住
part of you wants to be caught,
或者至少这个秘密不让你背负
or at least not have such a heavy burden
如此沉重的负担
of secret on your shoulders.
讨论信任他人的困难在于
The difficulty in discussing the trusting of others
你首先要相信自己
is one first has to trust themselves.
你不会说你相信自己吧?
You wouldn't say you trust yourself?
你会吗?
Would you?
不 我不介意你问
No, I don't mind you asking.
我已经单身好几年了
I've been single for a few years now.
你上一次重要的交往是什么时候?
When was your last significant relationship?
只有一次
There was only one.
米凯拉 我们在一起三年了
Mikayla, we were together for about three years.
发生了什么事?
What happened?
这七年来
I've been asking myself
我也在问自己同样的问题
that same question for seven years now.
我们渐行渐远才是真正发生的事
We drifted apart is what really happened.
这要归咎于两个人
Chalk it up to two people
因为他们的生活正朝着
whose lives were drastically heading
截然不同的方向发展
into different direction.
我刚刚开始我现在的工作
I had just started my job that I currently have.
我很高兴
I was happy.
但她有更宏伟的计划 并且想去实现它
But she had grander plans, she wanted to pursue them.
- 事情的结局友好吗? - 当然
- Did things end amiably? - Sure.
他们更加忧郁
They were more somber,
忧郁 而不是怨恨
melancholic as opposed to anything resentful.
我爱她胜过世界上的一切
I loved her more than anything in the entire world.
从我们开始约会的第一天起
From the first day that we stared dating,
我就知道我会娶她
I knew I would marry her,
然后我没有
and then I didn't get to.
她是我最好的朋友 是我的灵魂伴侣
She was my best friend, she was my soulmate.
当事情结束时 它是完全毁灭性的
When things ended, it was wholly devastating,
这是灾难性的
it was catastrophic.
但我一次也没有对她生过气
But not once did I ever get angry at her.
我一直把她留在心里
And I keep her here, always.
从那以后你和谁约会过?
Have you dated anyone since?
不 没有意义了
No, there's no point.
你的癖好在你们的关系中
What role did your proclivities
- 扮演了什么角色? - 什么都没有
- play in your relationship? - None.
这怎么可能?
How is that possible?
她不知道
She was unaware.
我确保它保持这种状态
I made sure that it remained that way.
但是它是如何影响你的呢？
But how did it affect you
我是说 在你们的关系中
in so much as your relationship, I mean?
我很抱歉 伙计们
I'm so sorry guys,
但是电池快没电了
but the battery's about to run out.
继续 埃利斯
Just keep it going, Ellis.
对不起 诺埃尔 请继续
Sorry Noel, please care on.
它还有电
It didn't.
能够做我所做的
To be able to do what I do,
能够在我所拥有的时间里逍遥法外
to be able to remain at large for as long I have,
一个人必须非常善于区分
one has to be intensely good at compartmentalizing.
你必须能够在你生活的两面之间
You have to be able to switch
及时转换
from one facet of your life to another,
不同的人要区别对待
treat them as separate lives.
你必须在头脑中做出区分
You have to make that distinction in your mind.
这主要是为了不失去理智
This serves the primary purpose of not losing your mind,
其次是不被抓
and the secondary purpose of not getting caught.
很好 我一直想问你这个问题
Good, there, I've been itching to ask that of you.
你说你在2002年杀死了第一个受害者
You said that you killed your first victim in 2002
那时你才17岁
when you were only 17.
你是怎么逍遥法外的?
How have you remained at large?
区分
Compartmentalization,
以及随机选择的秉性
and the nature of random selection.
你杀过你认识的人吗?
Have you ever killed somebody you knew?
没有 没有 这就是我现在的工作方式
No, no that's now how I work,
我不是这样的人
it's not how I'm wired.
那不是我发泄的方式
That's not part of the outlet for me.
此外 那会引起忧虑
Besides, that would lead to apprehension
这意味着动机
which would imply motive.
你是说被抓
You mean being caught,
- 显然是的 - 是的 没错
- obviously. - Yes, exactly.
你能详细阐述一下
Can you elaborate
你所说的划分和随机选择
on the idea of compartmentalization
是什么意思吗?
and random selection, as you put it?
好吧 第一个很简单
Well, the first is easy.
就像我说的 就是不要失去理智
Like I said, it's about not losing your mind
- 而且不要被抓住 - 哦 对不起 伙计们
- and not getting caught. - Oh, sorry, guys,
不是要打断你
Not to cut you off,
但作为一名记者和讲故事的人
but as a journalist and a storyteller,
我必须问这个问题
I must ask this question.
你不觉得自己疯了吗?
You don't consider yourself insane?
不
No.
精神变态者没有足够的认知
Psychopaths are not cognizant enough
来判断他们是精神变态者
to know that they are psychopaths.
但我完全能够认知
But I am fully self-aware to know
我不是精神病患者
that I am not a psychopath.
那你算不算变态呢
A sociopath then.
是的 当然
Yes, of course.
这是冲动
It is impulse.
这对我来说很神奇
It's amazing to me
你似乎很了解自己
how well you seem to know yourself,
你好像很享受这么做
and how comfortable you are with it.
这很有趣 不是吗?
It's interesting, isn't it?
你是谁
The foggy area between who you are
和你认为自己是谁之间的模糊区域 内省
and who you perceive yourself to be, introspectively.
如果你现在照镜子
See, if you were to look into a mirror right now,
你看不到你自己
you wouldn't see yourself.
你会看到一个抽象概念
You would see an abstraction,
一个消息灵通的反射
an informed reflection.
也许是一种疏离 但肯定是一种改变
Perhaps an alienated one, but certainly an altered one.
你认为你了解自己吗?
Do you think you know yourself?
是的 我想是的
Yeah, I'd like to think so.
那也会变化
That changes.
- 可能吧- 当然会
- Possibly. - Definitely.
请继续
Please continue.
如果你能成功地规划你的生活
If you can successfully compartmentalize your life,
然后没有泄漏
then nothing leaks.
因为我会回家
'Cause I would come home,
米凯拉 她什么也看不见
and Mikayla, she wouldn't see anything.
她不会在我脸上看到它 她闻不到任何东西
She wouldn't see it on my face, she couldn't smell anything.
我不会发抖或担心
I wouldn't be shaky or concerned.
我所做的一切都会被紧紧地锁在
Everything that I had done would be locked tightly
在一个秘密的历史盒子里
in a secret box of history,
只要我想 我可以把我的过去留在那里
and I could keep my past there when I wanted to.
比如说 当你的冲动取代了杀死你所爱的人时
What stops you when your impulse takes over
是什么阻止了你?
from killing a loved one, let's say?
因为我爱他们
Because I love them.
我不是疯子
I'm not an insane man.
你必须明白伊森死后
You have to understand there was no love
我家里再也没有爱
in my house after Ethan died.
所以爱对我来说很重要
So love is very important to me.
我不会杀我爱的人
I wouldn't kill someone I loved
原因很明显
for the most obvious of reasons.
你觉得米凯拉会怎么说
What do you think Mikayla would have said
如果她发现你做的事?
if she ever found out?
我不知道
I don't know.
我因不知道而感到安慰
I take solace in not knowing.
我们过去常常一起唱这首歌
We used to sing this song together.
你说跳
♪ You say jump ♪
我说有多高
♪ I say how high ♪
- 你知道这首歌吗? - 是的
- Do you know it? - Yeah.
但是我们经常换词
But we use to change the words, though.
我们过去常说
We used to say.
你说跳
♪ You say jump ♪
我说什么屋顶
♪ I say what roof ♪
她过去听到这里总是大笑
She used to always laugh at that.
随机…
Random...
你呢?
And what about you?
我可能失败了
I'm failed potentially.
好吧 我们当然没有仓促决定
Well, we certainly didn't rush into the decision
才踏上这段旅程去拍这部电影
to go on this journey to make this film,
但我们已经厌倦了等待
but we're tired of waiting for validation
一个来自冷漠和困难的行业验证
from an uncaring and a very difficult industry.
我认为你的选择是正确的 这是一个大胆的举动
I think you made the right choice, it's a bold move.
谢谢你
Thank you.
我想这是一家熟食店
I think this is a deli here.
我去拿点喝的
I'm gonna go grab something to drink,
- 我的喉咙很干 - 咸的薯片呢?
- my throat's parched. - Salty chips?
也给你拿点咸薯片
Salty chips to you, too.
先生们 你们想要点什么吗?
Gentlemen, would you guys like anything?
-不 不 谢谢 - 不 我很好
- No, no thank you. - Nah, I'm good,
- 谢谢你 - 你确定?
- thank you. - You sure?
- 嗯嗯 - 谢谢
- Mm-hm. - Thanks.
好的 我一会儿就回来
Alright, I'll be back in just a moment.
我们得找个经纪人
We got to get an agent.
也许这能给我们找个?
Maybe this will get us one?
是的 也许吧
Yeah, maybe.
我知道 我知道我们需要
I know, I know we do.
但你也知道 这不像申请
But as you well know, it's not like applying
- 一张信用卡 - 是啊
- for a credit card. - Right.
顺便问一下 拉娜一切
By the way, how's Lana taking
- 都好吗? - 焦躁
- everything? - Impatient.
她很焦躁 受够了
Impatiently, she's getting fed up.
我明白了
I get it.
如果你采取不同的方法
Well, maybe if you take a different approach,
也许可以
that might be able to.
哦 卧槽 卧槽
Oh fuck, fuck!
- 哦 哦 不 - 哦 糟糕
- Oh, oh no. - Oh shit.
- 糟糕 - 等等 你在干嘛?
- Shit. - Wait, what are you doing?
我们不能把他留在这里
We can't leave him here.
-我们不能 - 他会被抓住的
- We're not gonna be, - He's gonna get caught!
我们不能呆在这里
We can't stay here.
我们不能成为谋杀的帮凶!
We're not gonna be an accessory to murder!
哦 卧槽 卧槽
Oh fuck, fuck,
- 我不知道 - 快走 快走 快走
- I don't know. - Go, go, go.
我不知道 不!
I don't know, no!
- 码头! - 哦 卧槽!
- The dock! - Oh fuck!
哦 卧槽 走 走 走!
Oh fuck, go, go, go!
我只想要一杯佳得乐
I just wanted a Gatorade.
- 准备好了吗? - 好了
- Ready? - Yeah, I'm rolling.
这是几分钟前送来的
So, this just came in a few minutes ago.
凌晨 2:37
2:37 a.m.
这是诺埃尔的语音邮件
This is a voicemail from Noel.
你好 埃罗尔
Hello, Errol.
你看到了我很尴尬
You saw that, I was awkward.
听着 我知道那不是交易的一部分 真的
Look, I understand that wasn't part of the deal, really.
我并不想以任何方式
And I didn't mean to implicate
把你们牵扯进来
or involve you guys in any way,
我希望你们没有酸痛
and I hope you're not sore.
冲动与欲望
Compulsion and the itch
是非常真实和无法控制的
are very real and uncontrollable.
也许你们亲眼看到是件好事
Maybe it's good you got a first-hand look for yourselves.
我希望你别难过
No hard feelings, I hope.
好吧
And, alright.
洛丽塔并不讨厌你 她很喜欢你
Loretta does not dislike, she likes you just fine.
亲爱的 她喜欢我
Honey, she's about as fond of me
就像她喜欢被黄蜂蛰一样
as she is of a wasp sting.
不 不是
No, not true,
她只是怀疑你 仅此而已
she's just skeptical of you, that's all.
怀疑吗?
Skeptical?
疲倦 我想是的
Weary, I meant to say,
-“疲倦” - 也许是吧
- "Weary." - Yeah maybe,
但是你没有
but you didn't.
怀疑
Skeptical.
疲倦
Weary.
疲倦怎么能好点呢?
How is weary any better?
我们不是应该庆祝布莱恩的生日吗?
Aren't we supposed to be celebrating Brian's birthday?
闭嘴 埃利斯
Shut your trap, Ellis.
你说过你想来的
You said you wanted to be here,
我们都很高兴你录了这首歌
and we're all be thrilled that you recorded this
当这个小家伙看到噼啪声时
when we see this little guy's face light up
我们看到他的脸都亮了
when he sees the cracklers.
你们明天什么时候拍片?
What time are you guys filming tomorrow?
嗯…
Um...
你明天拍片吗?
Are you filming tomorrow?
我想拍吧
At some point, I think.
你还会和我一起吃午饭吗?
Well, are you still meeting me for lunch?
因为我有一场演出
Because I have a showing
我必须在1点15分左右到达切斯特港
that I have to be at in Port Chester around 1:15.
是的 是的 那很好
Yeah, yeah that's fine.
- 我能做到 - 是吗?
- I can do that. - Yeah?
你好 埃罗尔
Hello, Errol.
- 你好 - 诺埃尔
- Hello. - Noel.
这是我的妻子 拉娜
This is my wife, Lana.
- 很高兴见到你 - 我儿子布莱恩
- Nice to meet you. - And my son, Brian,
你想去见布莱恩吗?
you want to come meet Brian?
- 我希望… - 过来 过来
- I was hoping... - Come here, come here.
布莱恩 到这里来
Brian, come here.
你想见见我的朋友诺埃尔吗?
Do you want to meet my friend, Noel?
过来 大小伙
Come here, big guy.
这是诺尔 这是布莱恩
This is Noel, and this Brian.
想跟妈妈打个招呼吗?
Want to go say, "Hi," to mommy?
去找妈妈 好吗?
Go get mommy, okay?
加入我们吧 过来
Join us, come here.
埃罗尔 我可以
Errol, may I speak
跟你聊一会儿吗?
to you for just a moment, please?
老实说 我有点尴尬
Listen, frankly, I'm a bit embarrassed
因为昨晚发生的事
about what occurred last night.
诺埃尔 拜托别这样
Noel, don't be, please.
我很感激
I appreciate that.
我想让你知道
I want to make sure you know
我非常尊重这个项目
that I respect the project immensely,
我并不想做任何事来让你这个绅士
and I wouldn't want to do anything to put you gentlemen
做出任何形式的妥协…
in any sort of compromising...
我们非常清楚
We are absolutely aware of that,
我们非常感谢你 真的
and we thank you for it, really.
好的 谢谢你
Okay, thank you.
要过来吗?
Want to come?
当然
Sure.
我没疯 我没有 好吗?
I'm not freaking out, I am not, okay?
我只是关心
I am merely concerned,
- 没错 - 我同意
- and rightfully so. - I agree
你感到惊讶是对的
that you are right to be surprised.
噢 谢谢你
Oh, thank you.
宝贝 我不是和你争吵这个
Babe, I'm not fighting with you on that,
但你没什么好担心的 好吗?
but you have nothing to be concerned about, okay?
所以我们可以
So can we please have this dialog
- 私下回家再谈吗? - 不 埃罗尔
- when we get home privately? - No, Errol,
不行 因为我不想要一个吸毒成瘾的人
let's not, because I don't want a drug-addled man
在我们孩子身边 好吗?
around our child, okay?
所以我们现在就要谈
So we're gonna talk about it right now.
你到底在说什么?
What in the hell are you talking about?
他以前是个瘾君子
He's an ex-drug addict,
他正在康复 现在已经戒毒了 好吗?
he's in recovery and he's clean right now, alright?
你总是这样
Like always.
我甚至不知道我们为什么要为这个争吵
I don't even know why this is an argument.
这让我很吃惊
Like, it blows my mind.
这让我很惊讶
It blows my mind
你现在完全可以解决这个问题
that this scenario right now is okay with you.
怎么 你在跟我开玩笑吗?
What, are you joking with me?
首先 他怎么知道我们在哪里?
First of all, how did he even know where we were?
因为我告诉他了
Because I told him.
- 你告诉他的 - 是的 拉娜
- You told him. - Yes, Lana,
就像谈话中说的
as in conversation.
我是说 我没有邀请他
I mean, I didn't invite him.
听着 要不然你带儿子
Look, do you just wanna take him
- 先回去？ - 不 我们好不容易
- and go? - No, we came
- 才到这里 - 开车只需要
- all the way down here. - It's like
- 15分钟吧 - 我不想毁了今天
- 15 minutes by car. - I don't want this day ruined
为了我们的儿子 好吗?
for our son, okay?
好吧
Okay.
发生了什么事?
What happened?
没什么 她只是生气了
Nothing, she's just pissed.
为什么 不买那个瘾君子的药?
Why, not buying the drug addict?
不是 她只是不希望他和布莱恩在一起
No, she just doesn't want him around Brian.
她完全相信 这就是问题所在
She totally buys it, that's the problem.
她只是紧张
She's just nervous.
我们去找点乐子吧?
Let's go have some fun, huh?
2016年8月15日 下午3：53 来自诺埃尔的语音消息
我今天接到米凯拉的电话
I got a phone call today from Mikayla.
我至少有两年没见过她了
I haven't seen her for at least a couple of years.
我在城里碰到过她
I ran into her in town and,
她带着一个孩子
she has a child.
她带着我女儿
She had my daughter.
我有一个小女儿了
I had a little girl.
我不知道如果她当时不告诉我 为什么现在又要告诉我
I don't know why she told me now if she didn't then.
她叫加布里埃尔
Her name is Gabriella.
这是我一直想为我们的女儿起的名字
That was always what I wanted to name a baby girl
如果我们曾经有过孩子
if we ever had kids.
她告诉我 我们分手后
She told me she found out she was carrying
她发现自己怀孕了
after we broke up,
但我真的
and I really,
我真的不知道
I really don't know.
她以前从未怀过孕
She just never did.
我还以为她不能怀孕
I guess she didn't have it in her.
好了
Alright,
早点起床 我们周四见
up early, I'll see you boys Thursday.
小心些
Be careful.
小心点 我太不合格了
Be careful, I'm unfit.
我太不负责了
I'm unsound.
诺埃尔 诺埃尔怎么了 发生什么事了?
Noel, Noel what is it, what happened?
你不能指望
You can't expect
站在魔鬼的肩膀上
to stand on the shoulders of the devil
然后走开 逃跑
and walk away and escape.
我太不合格了
I'm unfit.
- 我太不负责了 - 你什么意思?
- I'm unsound. - What do you mean?
听着 没事的
Look, it's okay.
我愿意暂时参与这种生活
And willing participate in this life for now.
它完全变成了另一种东西
It's become something else entirely.
我还没解决 埃罗尔 我太不合格了
I'm unsolved, Errol, I'm unfit.
你想见见谁吗?
Do you want to see someone?
和别人谈谈 诺埃尔
Speak with somebody, Noel.
我得走了
I got to go.
诺埃尔 诺埃尔
Noel, Noel.
如果你想好好看看自己
If you ever want to take a good look at yourself,
就不要停在镜子前
don't stop in the mirror.
相信我的话
Take my word for it.
我需要休息一下 我走不动了
I'm gonna need a break, boys, I can't keep going.
当然可以 我们可以午饭后继续
Yeah sure, we can resume after lunch,
- 没关系的 - 活得更久!
- it's okay. - Live longer than that!
我们不想等太久 诺埃尔 诺埃尔
We don't want to wait too long, Noel, Noel.
卧槽!
Fuck!
诺埃尔在一个电话追逐游戏中留下几条信息后 和埃罗尔说了两次话
这些对话没有被录音
诺埃尔宣布 在目前的项目上他不能承诺投入更多的时间
他说他需要“清理他的大脑”并参与治疗
他承认自己会努力坚持写视频日记
并尽可能地把视频发给他们 他想帮忙
真是太绝情了
So relentless, what.
我是说 我们得把他救出来
I mean, we got to get him out.
这是首先要做的 也是最重要的
First and foremost,
我们和他没有任何具有法律约束力的协议
we have no legally binding agreement with him.
所以我们
So we have,
我们几乎无能为力
we got us virtually nothing
如果我们就这么等着
we can do, well, if we wait,
- 那么… - 很明显
- then... - Obviously,
我们和他没有法律约束力的合同 埃利斯
we don't have a legally binding contract with him, Ellis.
别着急 伙计
Don't get snippy, man.
我想说的是即使没有他
All I'm saying is that without,
我们也能在这里完成拍摄
it'd be in this sort of corner.
它很大程度上是关于旅程
It largely becomes about the journey,
以及冒险会在哪里结束
and the adventure for where is this gonna end.
好吧
Alright.
如果我们等它结束 很明显我们必须这样
If we wait it out, and we obviously have to,
或者如果我们决定了
or if we decided to,
它确实有助于改变这种说法
it does help change the narrative.
所以你是说 他出现这种情况
So you're saying that this is a good thing
反而是件好事?
that this happened?
不 不是 这是一线希望
No, not at all, it's a silver lining.
实际上有很多
Many of them, actually.
我这么说吧
Let me put it this way,
作为电影制作人 我们一直在努力
as filmmakers, we are always trying
来塑造叙事 对吧?
to shape up the narrative, right?
我的意思是 这就是我们所做的
I mean, that's what we do,
- 那是我们的工作 - 是的
- that's our job. - Yep.
但现在是让故事塑造我们
But it's about letting the narrative shape us.
最重要的是 诺埃尔
And most crucially, Noel.
这对加布里埃尔来说是一个地狱般的转折
It's one hell of a twist with Gabriella.
哦 绝对的 绝对的
Oh absolutely, absolutely.
也许他只是需要点空间?
I mean, maybe he just needs some space?
也许我们也是 我不知道
Maybe we do too, I don't know.
我不知道 但是让我们继续吧
I don't know, but let's roll with it.
我们怎么从来没谈过这件事?
How come we never talked about it?
什么事?
About what?
那天晚上
The other night.
熟食店
The deli.
我不知道
I don't know.
因为我猜…
Because I guess it was...
我的意思是 它…
I mean, it...
我们为什么要谈论这个?
Why do we have to talk about it?
这是一件可怕而奇怪的事情
It was this horrible and bizarre thing that happened.
并且我们仍旧在这里
And we're still here.
做纪录片
With documentaries.
这只是生活的一部分
It's just part of life,
这可能是一场恐怖秀
it can be a horror show.
我知道
I know,
但我们个人
but we're both individually
和集体都忽略了一个事实
and collectively ignore the fact
那就是我们还没有接受它
that there's not coming to terms with it yet.
你觉得内疚吗?
Do you feel guilty?
内疚 为什么?
Guilty, why?
诺埃尔爆发了 对吧?
Okay, so, Noel has an outburst, right?
有几秒钟他无法控制自己
And he cannot control himself for a few seconds.
像他这样的人身上
Isn't that stain that's just gonna get
不会留下这种污点吗?
with someone like him?
这是不同的 不是吗?
It was different, wasn't it?
我要特别指出的是
Which specifically permit me to point out that
我们甚至还不知道诺埃尔是谁 对吧？
we don't even know who Noel is yet, right?
你说像他这样的人
I mean, you say somebody like him,
到底是什么样的人呢?
but who is he?
我是说 我们最初的关系
I mean, our whole initial relationship
是建立在谎言之上的
is built on a lie.
完全的伪装
Total fabrication.
这个过程的一部分和这个故事的基础
Part of this process and the fundamentals of this story
就是找出他是谁
is finding out who he is,
那个人能做什么
what that person is capable of.
我们不知道他什么时候撒谎
We don't know when he's lying,
我们不知道他什么时候会说出
and we don't know when he's telling
- 真相 - 是啊 但你刚说
- the truth. - Yeah, but you just said,
我们之间没有签署任何协议
that there's no coming to terms to it.
还没有 你指的是什么?
Not yet, so what are you referring to?
一种威胁?
A threat?
我不知道
I don't know.
当然 我们是个威胁
Yeah, sure, we're a threat.
不过 这很奇怪
It's the oddity of it, though.
太奇怪了
Sort of spectacle of it all.
你觉得内疚吗?
Do you feel guilty?
是的 当然
Yeah, of course,
因为谁知道那会导致什么后果
because who knows where that could have led.
我们讨论了这种可能性
We discussed the eventuality of that
还有潜在的责任 但是当你在现场时候
and the potential liability, but when you're there?
就像战争一样
It's like war.
你听说过
You hear about,
或者在历史书上读到过
or read about it in history books,
以及在电影和课程上看到过
and movies and lessons.
但当你身临其境时
But when you're in it,
你知道吗?
you know?
我想也许
You know maybe,
也许我们在拍一部战争片
maybe we're doing a war film.
听着 胶带要遮盖好
Look, Tape Mays was going to be sheltered.
到目前为止
Now so far, so far,
必须在电影里展示谋杀 对吧?
has to show a murder on film, right?
你到底怎么了?
What happens, man?
这本来是一部和谐的电影
It was supposed to be a concert film,
但它现在变得有点乱乱的
and it turned into chaos.
这只是过程的一部分
That's just part of the process,
这只是一部分
that's just part of,
它是存在的一部分
it's part of existing.
但他们并没有隐含其中
But they weren't implicit in it.
为了论证
For argument sake.
是的 但是
Yeah, I mean, but,
想象一下如果有人对曼森有这样的洞察力
imagine if someone had that kind of insight on Manson.
或者说 盖西
Or, what it is, Gacy,
或者达莫或邦迪 他们中的任何一个
or Dahmer or Bundy, any of them?
或者更糟 或者人们没那么坏?
Or even worse, or people not that bad?
你能理解它对文化影响的
Can you even fathom the psychological contributions
心理贡献吗?
to the cultural impact it would of had?
以它自己的方式 很有可能这是一部
It's quite possible that this is a war film
战争片
in it's own way.
是啊 也许这就是结局?
Yeah, maybe that's how it plays out?
或许这就是新的方法?
Or maybe that's the new approach?
也许从一开始就是这样
Maybe that's what it was from the beginning,
只是各种形式的战争?
just war in all it's forms?
有时感觉是这样的
It feels like it sometimes.
我得告诉你多少次要锁门?
How many times do I have to tell you to lock the door?
你怎么知道没上锁?
How do you know it wasn't locked?
因为你没有开锁 白痴
Because you didn't unlock it, idiot.
哦 好吧 这很公平
Oh, well that's fair.
我们有镜头了!
We have footage!
干得好 伙计们 干得好
Nicely done, guys, nicely done.
一 二 三
One, two, three.
我的天啊 我的天啊!
Oh my God, oh my God!
天啊
Oh my God, I'm like,
- 诺埃尔! - 不要尖叫
- Noel! - Stifle your squealing,
- 甜心! - 我的天啊
- sugar tits! - Oh my God,
- 天啊! - 好了 好了
- Oh my God! - Okay, okay,
我知道 有点过分了
I know, it was a bit much.
但是看看 看看 看看 看看
But look see, look see, look see, look see,
看 看 看 嘘 嘘 嘘 嘘 嘘 嘘 嘘
look, look, look, shhh, shhh, shhh, shhh, shhh, shhh, shhh.
嘘 嘘
Hush, hush,
安静小宝贝 什么也不要说
♪ Hush little baby don't say a word ♪
爸爸会买给你的
♪ Papa's gonna buy you ♪
哦 我的天啊!
Oh my God!
哦 我回来了!
Oh, I came back!
你拿了什么?
What you got?
别吃那个 别吃那个
Don't eat that, don't eat that.
当然不要吃那个!
Certainly don't eat that!
不 上帝!
No, God!
这里是911 发生了什么事?
911, what happened?
哦 哦 求你派人来救我!
Oh, oh, please send help, please!
警察就要来了 你这个混蛋!
The police are on their way, you asshole!
嘿 小家伙
Hey there, buddy.
我得走了
I got to go.
你要照顾好自己 好吗?
You take care of yourself, chap, alright?
见到你真好!
Good seeing you!
- 啊 - 啊 他们来了
- Ah. - Ah, there they are,
我英俊的绅士
my handsome gents.
你好吗 诺埃尔?
How are things, Noel?
很好 先生们 很好 感觉好多了
Aces, gentlemen, aces, feeling much better.
很高兴听到这个消息
So glad to hear it.
我自己也做了不少事情
I've been working on myself quite a bit.
我不确定达成协议
I'm not sure if coming to terms
是不是正确的说法
is really the right phrase,
但我一直在为
but I've certainly been negotiating
最近发生的事件
some of the bigger baggage better
和揭露的真相进行谈判
in light of the recent events and revelations
- 当然 如你们所知 - 好吧 那真是太棒了
- as you know, of course. - Well, that's really superb.
顺便谢谢你
And thank you, by the way.
我欣赏你的耐心 它不会被忽视
I appreciate your patience, it doesn't go unnoticed.
我只是想让你知道
I just want you to know that.
- 当然 - 是的 伙计 没问题
- Of course. - Yeah man, no sweat.
来点大新闻
So, some big news.
明天我要去见米凯拉
Tomorrow, I'll be seeing Mikayla
第一次见加布里埃尔
and meeting Gabriella for the very first time.
噢 你感觉怎么样?
Ow, how do you feel?
你兴奋吗?
Are you excited?
无法用言语来表达 先生
Words pay it no service, gentlemen.
感觉就像我的心
My heart, it's, it feels like
正在成长为一颗新的一样
it's growing a new one.
如果这有意义的话
If that makes any sense,
我很兴奋
and I'm excited
紧张又焦虑 但又很感激
and nervous and anxious, but grateful,
各种情绪交织着
and usually all at once.
你们在哪里见面?
And where are you guys meeting?
诺里斯 这是城里的一家餐馆
Norris, it's a diner in town.
明天应该是个好天气
It's suppose to be a beautiful day tomorrow,
那里有一个露台
and there's a patio there.
我要提早下班
I'll be leaving work a little early,
米凯拉 她仍然在晚上工作
and Mikayla, she still works in the evenings.
她上夜班的时候睡照顾加布里埃尔?
Who watches Gabriella when she's at work?
米凯拉有一个固定的保姆
Mikayla has a regular babysitter.
据说人非常好
Supposedly very pleasant,
加布里埃尔很喜欢她
and Gabriella absolutely adores her.
她有男朋友了 对吧?
And she's got a boyfriend, right?
我怎么知道保姆有没有男朋友?
How should I know if the babysitter has a boyfriend?
是的 米凯拉已经和别人交往一段时间了
Yes, Mikayla's been seeing someone for a while now.
为了工作他最近搬到西部了
He recently moved west for work,
所以 他们一直是异地恋状态
and so, they've been dong the long distance arrangement.
你什么时候见他们?
When are you meeting them?
中午
Noon.
你知道我下一个问题是什么
You know what my next question is.
我知道 答案是不 埃罗尔
I do, and the answer has to be no, Errol.
真的么 为什么?
Really, why?
因为这太私人了
Because it's too personal.
但这正是它更重要的地方
But that's what makes it all the more important.
为了你 不是为了我
For you, not for me.
- 为了我们 - 好吗?
- For us. - Okay?
为了我们大家
For all us.
听着 除了正确和诚实的方式
Listen, I wouldn't put it to you
我不会用其他的方式告诉你
any other way but the right way and the honest way,
我告诉你这是一个命令
and I'm telling you that this is an imperative
对你和你的故事来说都是重要的时刻
and essential moment for you, for your story.
我们的这部电影讲述的是你的故事
Our film, this movie, it's your story.
我不想成为一个混蛋 也不想在这个问题上给你太大压力
I don't want to be a jerk or press you too hard on this,
但我真的必须坚持
but I really must be insistent.
有没有一种折中的办法…
Well, is there a happy medium of sorts that...
是的 通常是有的
Well yeah, there usually is.
你有什么想法?
What you'd have in mind?
我不想让摄像机拍到我女儿的脸
Well, I don't want a camera in my daughter's face,
我不想让她遭受这些
I don't want her subjected to that,
- 你明白吗? - 明白
- do you understand? - Yep.
如果你从远处拍摄呢?
What if you were to film from a distance?
这样 你就可以捕捉那些瞬间
That way, you could capture the moments,
而不干扰到地
but less intrusively.
是的 能麻烦你一下吗?
Yeah, can we lav you?
这是什么意思?
What does that mean?
能给你麦克风吗?
Can we put a mic on you?
当然可以 但要远距离拍
Sure, yes, but from a distance,
- 成交吗? - 成交
- deal? - Deal.
好的 我去你家
Alright, I'll come to your home
中午之前我们简单聊一下
let's say little before noon,
到时候我们可谈更多细节
and we can talk more about it then.
听起来不错
Sounds great.
好了 先生 祝你愉快
Alright, gentlemen, you have a good day.
- 再见 - 好的 再见 诺埃尔
- Bye. - Okay, see you, Noel.
你感觉怎么样 肌肉?
How you feeling there, Muscles?
很清爽 很芬芳
In mint condition, wicked delish.
不过实际上
Really, though,
你感觉好吗?
you feeling okay?
感觉一团糟
I'm in shambles.
我能帮什么忙吗?
How can I help?
你真的不能
You really can't.
我很兴奋 真的
I'm excited, really I am,
但那是一种恐惧的兴奋
but it's that terrified excitement
你无法摆脱你的胃
that you can't shake out of your stomach.
我通常不容易反胃
I don't usually get queasy often.
我知道
I know.
你会做得很好的
You're gonna do great.
谢谢你 埃罗尔
Thank you, Errol.
嘿 埃利斯?
Hey, Ellis?
- 怎么啦? - 车上有人吗?
- Yeah? - Is the car packed?
哦 等等 你有麦克风吗?
Oh wait, are you miked?
是的 有 埃利斯已经处理好了
Yes, yes, Ellis already took care of it.
是的 车也准备好了
Yep, the car's ready, too.
太好了
Great.
你没事吧?
You okay?
是的
Yes.
每次我开车的时候
Every time I get behind the wheel,
我不知道他会不会开始
I don't know if he's gonna start,
这是老布朗森的末日
that it's the end of the line for good old Bronson.
布朗森 是吗?
Bronson, is he?
所以它是这辆庞蒂克车的名字啊
So the Pontiac has a name.
以罪犯的名字命名 而不是以演员的名字
Named after the criminal, not the actor.
罪犯是以那个演员的名字命名的
The criminal is named after the actor.
是的 但仍然是两个
Yes, but still two very,
截然不同的人
very different men.
理解
Understood.
最后检查一下 准备好了吗?
Last check, ready?
我可以的
I will be.
你们为什么不先走呢？
Why don't you gentlemen go first
我会紧随其后
and I'll trail closely behind?
好吧
Alright.
我不是一个坏人
I'm not a bad man.
我不是坏人 我不是
I'm not a bad man, I'm not a bad man.
我不是一个坏…
I'm not a bad...
对不起
Sorry.
我不是一个坏人
I'm not a bad man.
我不是一个坏人
I'm not a bad man.
我不是一个坏人
I'm not a bad man.
晚餐
嗨
Hi.
嘿
Hey.
嗨 诺埃尔
Hi, Noel.
外面很冷吧?
It's cold out, huh?
你好吗?
How are you?
我很好
I'm well.
我很好 见到你真好
I'm well, it's good to see you.
亲爱的加比宝贝?
Honey, Gabby baby?
你知道这是谁吗?
Do you know who this is?
这是你爸爸
This is your daddy.
还记得你看过的那些照片吗?
Remember all those pictures you saw?
这就是他
This is him.
嗨 加布里埃尔
Hi, Gabriella.
你能说“你好”吗?
Can you say, "Hello?"
你好
Hello.
嗨
Hi.
见到你真好
It's really lovely to meet you.
你想看我的画吗?
Do you want to see my pictures?
是的 我想看看你的画
Yes, I'd love to see your pictures.
她只会画画
All she does is draw.
她去哪儿都会带着
She brings them everywhere.
她跳过了涂色书
She just skipped coloring books.
就自己画 然后上色
Just draws her own and colors it.
真是不可思议
That's amazing.
- 真漂亮 - 看这个
- These are beautiful. - Look at this one.
这位是加拉格尔夫人 我的老师
This one, this is Mrs. Gallagher, my teacher,
这是山姆
and that's Sam.
我们有一只狗 叫山姆
We have a dog, Sam.
哪天你能给我画点什么吗?
Would you draw something for me someday?
现在你得让她走了
You got her going now.
午餐前她会给你画50样东西
She'll draw you 50 things by lunch.
你饿了吗 加布里埃尔?
Are you hungry, Gabriella?
我们吃点东西怎么样?
What do you say we get something to chow down on?
- 好的 - 好吗?
- Okay. - Okay?
我来开门
Get that for ya.
好吧 我不是不明白
Well, it's not that I don't understand
它们是如何以及为什么受欢迎的
how and why they became popular.
我只是说 这其中有很多意外的发现
I'm just saying that serendipity had a lot to do with it.
意外还是运气?
Serendipity or luck?
你觉得有什么区别吗?
Well, what do you think the difference is?
我不知道
I don't know actually.
以汉森的世界大同为例
Take Hanson's MMMBop for example.
我认为如果它们是和弦
I posit that if they're chords
而不是异想天开的
was actually comprised of words
青春期前的胡思乱想
as opposed to whimsical, prepubescent rambling
那么它永远不会成功
that it never would of made it then.
没有人会听到它
Nobody would of heard it
因为那是他魅力的一部分
because that was a part of his charm.
如果你这么叫的话
If that's what you'd call it.
我记得我第一次听到的时候
Yeah, I remember the first time I heard it,
我心想
I thought to myself,
“他们在搞什么鬼?”
"What the fuck are they going on about?
“我是中暑了还是他们在骗我?”
"Am I mid-stroke or are they putting me on?
-“ 我是说 发生了什么事?” - 我曾经非常兴奋
- "I mean, what's the story?" - I was super high once,
我听了贾斯汀·汀布莱克的《我们去兜兜风吧》
and I listened to Justin Timberlake's Let's Take A Ride,
连续75遍 伙计
like 75 times in a row, man.
我说服自己
I convinced myself I was about clivered
我差点被朝鲜战争吓到了
to dog finding the Korean War.
想想看 诺埃尔
You know, come to think of it, Noel,
我从没见你做过任何出格的事
I've never seen you do anything.
你偶尔抽大麻吗
Do you ever smoke the occasional joint,
- 或者喝点什么? - 没有 只抽烟
- or drink anything? - No, only cigarettes.
你是天主教徒 你应该知道我的立场
You're a Catholic boy, you should know where I stand.
是的 我有标准来证明我12年的
I am, I have the yardstick marks to prove my 12 years
- 天主教教育 - 哦 真的吗?
- of Catholic schooling. - Oh really?
哦 开个关于殴打的玩笑
Oh, kidding about the beatings,
但是我们的牧师很刻板
but we had that stereotypical priest.
他过去常大声说出有关魔鬼的话
He used to shout out quotes about the devil.
把对上帝的敬畏放在你身上
Put the fear of God in ya.
你还记得吗?
Do you remember any of them?
引号 是的 但我在我认为我有麻烦的时候
The quotes, yeah, but I only use them
才用它们
when I think I'm in trouble.
这是你的帽子吗?
This your hat?
我以前从来没见你戴过
I never seen you wear it before.
- 哦 - 我想是你的吧?
- Oh. - It is yours, I presume?
是的 我不知道它在这里
Yes, I didn't know it was in here.
那是很久以前的事了
It's from a long time ago.
真的 对你有好处
Really though, good for you.
要抵制这些东西并不容易
It's not easy resisting those types of things.
至少对很多人来说是这样
For a lot of people, anyway.
我的意思是 这一直都很简单
Well, I mean, it's always been easy,
我只是不想失去对情绪的控制
I just don't like to lose control of my emotions.
模仿老虎的动作
Imitate the actions of the tiger.
你这个混蛋
You piece of shit.
我只是想来打个招呼
I just wanted to come say, "Hi,"
但你开始跑 所以我决定和你一起跑
but you started running, so I decided to run with you.
混蛋
Piece of shit.
你好吗?
How are you?
先生 这是我的朋友 莫妮卡
Gentlemen, this is my friend, Monica.
我们以前在塔利镇常演轮演剧目
We use to do repertory theater back in Tarrytown.
你这个混蛋
You piece of shit.
你还在那儿吗?
Are you still over there?
- 是的 - 你现在在做
- Yeah. - What are you guys
什么工作?
working on right now?
现在我们研究莎士比亚 很多东西
Now we doing Shakespeare, lots of stuff,
- 你应该过来 - 哦 我的天啊
- you should come. - Oh my God,
我应该来看你们的演出 是吗?
I should come visit and see your shows, shouldn't I?
这个时刻
It was this moment
我意识到我永远无法理解诺埃尔
that I realized I would never understand Noel.
这很类似于寻找一段
Much akin to the struggle of pinpointing
关系恶化的确切时刻
the precise moment a relationship took a sour turn,
又或许是穿越着记忆的苍穹
or perhaps traversing through the anils of a fading memory
怀着重获昔日荣耀的绝望的希望
in a desperate hope to recapture a glory that once was.
情感和真正的理解之间存在着
There's an evasive disconnect between emotion
难以捉摸的脱节
and a true understanding.
从一开始 总是有一种真正的渴望
From the beginning, there was always a real yearning
想知道是什么让诺埃尔这么做
to learn what made Noel tick.
就像一个古老的时钟
And like an ancient clock,
滴答声不知何故总在那里
that ticking would somehow always be there.
但是细节和整体推理
But the specifics and the overall reasoning
将永远迷失在
would forever be lost in a rough sea
充斥着不确定性
of prevailing uncertainty
和道德困境的汹涌大海中
and moral dilemma.
他是个不知分寸的人
He was a man who knew no bounds.
他在他们中间过着严厉的生活
He had lived sternly within them.
人性的异常
An anomaly of humanity,
时间和地点
of time and place
善和恶
of good and evil.
他 不过如此
He simply was.
想谈谈你的想法吗?
Want to talk about what's on your mind?
不想
I don't think so.
好吧
Okay.
没关系
That's okay.
你知道的 这还不够好
It's not good enough, you know.
什么不够好？
What isn't?
任何事
Any of it.
当我还是个小男孩的时候
When I was a young boy,
我哥哥伊桑和我 会编造这些情节
my brother, Ethan and I, would invent these scenarios.
在以后的某一天
And someday later in life,
我们真想去天堂
we would of just gone to some paradise.
在我们所有的版本中 我们都会在那里见面
In all our versions, we would meet there.
事后想来 我也不知道为什么
In hindsight, I don't know why
我们不会一起去的
we wouldn't just go together.
也许我们想象着我们有自己的生活
Maybe we imagined we'd have our own lives,
我们自己的家庭
our own families,
我们就可以逃到天堂去
and we would flee them to go to paradise.
天堂在哪里?
Where was paradise?
它总是在变
It would always change.
有时是在美国或欧洲的
Sometimes, it was the northeastern part
东北部
of the United States or Europe.
我们总是选择这些标志性的交汇点
We'd always pick these iconic meeting points.
埃菲尔铁塔 大本钟
Eiffel Tower, Big Ben.
意大利山间别墅
A villa on the mountain side of Italy.
天堂是多么有趣
It's funny what paradise is
对于一个远离天堂的小男孩来说
to a young boy who lived so far from it.
我以前听你提过你哥哥的名字
I've heard you mention your brother's name before,
但仅此而已
but never anymore than that.
我哥哥伊森在镇上的游泳池里淹死了
My brother, Ethan, drowned at a town pool
在10岁的时候
at the age of 10.
我九岁
I was nine.
那天游泳池里挤满了人
The pool was packed that day.
我们在做炮弹
We were doing cannonballs,
想溅湿我们周围的人
splashing everyone around us.
附近的夫妇很生气
Getting dirty looks from couples nearby
而孩子们则显得很开心
and looks of glee from the children,
并最终加入了我们
who eventually joined in
如果得到父母允许的话
if their parents let them.
伊森一定是滑了一跤 他撞到了头
Ethan must of slipped and hit his head on that last one.
在许多人身上溅起了许多水花
Did a great many splashes in scores of people.
过了一段时间 我们都到了 他却不在
And after a while, we were all there and he wasn't.
我找过他
I looked for him at one point,
但没找到
but I didn't see him,
但我没觉得有什么不对
but I didn't think anything wrong of it.
似乎救你的人越多
Seems like the more people who were there to save you,
人们对危险的关注越少
the less attention is paid to danger.
总以为这一天太幸福了 不会发生意外
It was too blissful of a day for accidents.
这太明显了 太公开了
It was too obvious, it was just too out in the open.
我很抱歉 诺埃尔
I'm so sorry, Noel.
不用说 我成长的那个家已经不复存在了
Needless to say, the home I grew up in ceased to exist.
它变得更加黑暗
It became much darker place.
我想要治疗
I want therapy,
或者其他可以帮到我的
or whatever it is that I need.
我想成为一个男人
I want to change as a man,
我只是不知道该怎么做
I just don't know how to approach it.
我得找个人谈谈
I need to talk to someone.
我想成为加布里埃尔的父亲
I want to be a father to Gabriella.
但我不能把自己变成权威
But I can't turn myself into the authorities
或一种制度
or an institution,
很讽刺
and there's the irony in it.
如果我想成为她的父亲
I have to if I want to be a father to her,
如果我想成为她的父亲 我做不到
and I can't if I want to be a father to her.
我不想带着最大的谎言
I don't want to set out on a journey of truth
踏上真相和恢复的旅程
and recovery with the biggest lie of all.
一定有办法的
There's got to be a way.
有时候 我觉得我可能是太过分了
Sometimes, I feel that maybe I'm just too far gone.
但潜意识里 我只是想被抓住
But subconsciously, I just wanna get caught.
但在内心深处 我又觉得自己是个好人 不想被抓
But deep down, I know I good and I don't.
必须有某种中间立场
There must be some middle ground
让你可以不坦白 不暴露地
where you can seek treatment without confessing,
寻求治疗
divulging everything.
也许吧
Maybe.
有一件事我很确定 我需要改变
One thing I do know for sure is that I need a change,
我需要改变
I need to change.
如果我想在这方面取得进展
And if I'm to progress in that,
那拍摄将不得不再次中断
then this will have to go on hiatus again.
一切都可以安排的
Anything can be arranged.
谢谢你
Thank you.
我想回家
I want to go home.
去生活吧 兄弟!
Get a life, bro!
这个地方是用来和平和成家的
This was a place for peace and family!
不是为了准备
Not a come for prepared,
但你知道这意味着什么吗
but if you would know what that means,
你这个肮脏的笨蛋!
you filthy, brick-fucking loon!
嗨
Hi.
拜托
Come on,
向他们解释我们在做什么
explain to them what we're doing.
埃利斯和我正在努力
So Ellis and I are trying.
在我们开始这个项目之前
Okay, before we even started rolling on this project,
我们计划在众筹平台上发起一个完成基金项目
we had planned on launching a Kickstarter for finish funds,
主要用于后期制作… 你想
mostly for post-production... Do you want
解释什么是众筹吗?
to explain what Kickstarter is?
还有众筹之类的吗?
And about a crowdfunding and all that?
- 不 不 我不想 - 好的
- No, no, I don't. - Okay.
不管怎样 让我说完
Anyway, let me finish.
好吧 我们刚刚意识到
Well, we just realized that
我们还不知道如何宣传这部电影
we have no idea how to pitch this film.
我的意思是 考虑到它明显的主题 我们不能宣传
I mean, given the obvious subject matter, we can't.
我们甚至不能使用
We can't really even use
毒品角度的封面故事
the cover story of the drug angle, either.
为什么不呢?
Why not, actually?
好吧我是说 我想我们可以用啊
Well I mean, I guess we could.
我不知道 我只是觉得应该这样
I don't know, I just I feel like it needs to be
有同情心的 爽快的
sympathetic or chipper or something
让人们愿意捐款
for people to want to donate.
你知道 这并不完全正确
You know, that's not entirely true.
我的意思是 它很重要 是局部的 它有所有这些
I mean, it is important, it's topical, it's got all that,
- 而且是富有同情心的 - 不 是我有同情心
- and it is sympathetic. - No, I can be sympathetic.
它可以是富有同情心的
It can be sympathetic.
我是说 我们自己到底有多混蛋
I mean, how far up our own assholes did we have to be
才会把整个项目的这部分
to just completely have to gloss over
完全给掩饰过去呢?
this entire section of the project?
等等 这是最后一杯啤酒吗?
Wait, is that the last beer?
2016年7月10日凌晨1:20 来自埃罗尔的语音消息
嘿 诺埃尔
Hey Noel,
它是永恒的埃罗尔
it's the ever-persistent Errol.
我知道 我留下了一些语音消息
I know, I've left a few of these,
但是我们想念你
but we miss you.
听着 我们甚至不需要讨论恢复拍摄
Listen, we don't even have to talk about resuming shooting
或者是整个项目
or the project at all.
我们只想听到你一切安好
We just want to hear that you're alright,
听说你最近要有大事发生了
hear that things are coming along for you.
我们很快就要开始编辑过程了
We're going to start the editing process soon.
边做边编辑 就是这样
Edit as you go, so that'll be
很困惑又很兴奋
rich for confusion and excitement
还有漫漫长夜
and long slumberless nights.
无论如何 给你两周时间
Anyway, two weeks is a while.
当你感觉可以的时候喊我一声 好吗?
Give me a shout when you're feeling up to it, okay?
谢谢你 朋友
Thanks, buddy.
这段视频拍摄后不久 我们就收到了一封来自诺埃尔的电子邮件
这是16天内他的第一次通信 同时还发来一段视频
这是怎么发生的呢?
And how did that come about?
你是说过渡?
The transitions, you mean?
是的 整个过程是怎样的 有多快?
Yes, what was the process generally, and how speedily?
立竿见影
Immediate.
葬礼之后我们回到家
In light of the funeral, after that when we came home,
一切都不同了
everything was different.
一切都改变了
Everything changed.
我父亲开始酗酒
My father, he started drinking heavily,
我母亲也是如此
as did my mother but with her,
大量服药
it was mostly with pills.
但那晚之后 我失去了
But I lost my parents after that night
曾经非常了解的父母
in respect of how I've always knew them.
伊森的死对你有什么影响?
What affect did Ethan's death have on you?
我的意思是他死后
And again, I mean immediately after his passing.
我已经长大了 能够理解这一切的重量
I was old enough to comprehend the weight of it all.
但还是太年轻了 不能恰当地表达悲伤
But still, too young to be able to grieve properly.
我非常难过 甚至是沮丧
I was terribly sad, depressed even.
但我父母对我很疏远
But with my parents being distant
有时还心怀怨恨
and resentful at times,
我无处倾诉
I didn't really have an outlet for any of it.
他们对你有什么怨恨?
How were they resentful towards you?
我想是保持距离吧
By being distant, I guess.
但至少 我记忆中是这样
But at least, that's how I remembered it.
你觉得他们把他的死和那场事故
Do you feel they blamed you for his death
归咎于你吗？
and the accident itself?
我不知道
I don't know.
我想他们憎恨我还活着这个事实
I think they resented the fact that I was still alive.
你觉得他们喜欢伊森胜过你吗?
Do you think they've favored Ethan over you?
只有在他走后时这样吧
Only afterwards, after he was gone.
我想如果角色互换
I think if the roles were reversed
他肯定也会经历类似的创伤
that he would of have experienced a similar trauma.
你的父母现在在哪里?
Where are your parents now?
死了
Dead.
我可怜的母亲死于肾衰竭
My poor mother, she died of kidney failure,
而我的父亲 他自然死亡
and my father, he died of life.
我离开家的时候是12岁
I was 12 when I left home.
你这么小 去了哪里?
Where did you go at such a young age?
周围的地方
Around.
你什么时候
When the violent urges
想把我们的讨论集中在暴力冲动上?
you want to focus our session on begin?
大约是伊森去世的时候?
Around the time of Ethan's passing?
我们埋葬他的那晚
The night we buried him,
我在卧室墙上钻了个洞
I put a hole through my bedroom wall.
对于一个九岁的男孩来说 这已经很厉害了
That's pretty strong for a nine-year-old boy.
我用了一把斧头
I used an ax.
你怎么拿到斧头的？
How did you have access to that?
车库门没锁
Garage door was unlocked.
我很抱歉谈到这里
I'm sorry to jump around,
但我们的时间越来越有限
but our time is growing increasing limited
我想确认一下…
and I want to make sure...
对不起 让我把手机关掉
I'm sorry, let me turn this off.
我想确认一下我们是否已经达成一致
I want to make sure that we've arrived at this.
你想说的重大转折
What was the big turn of events
是什么？
that you wanted to speak about?
好吧 事实证明如此
Well, it turns out that.
米凯拉对加布里埃尔的介绍
Mikayla's introduction of Gabriella
很积极上进
was solely self-motivated.
所以呢?
How so?
她想让我带着她
She wants me to take her,
给我完全监护权
to have full custody.
她给你理由了吗?
Did she give you a reason?
大概就是说
The abridged version is that
她的男朋友几周前搬到西部工作去了
her boyfriend moved out west for work a few weeks ago,
现在她想在一个月后去找他
and she now wants to join him in a month's time.
她想重新开始
She wants to start fresh
重新安家 正如她所说的
and relocate, as she puts it.
为什么不带加布里埃尔一起去呢?
Why not take Gabriella with her?
她有很多理由
She had many reasons.
最重要的一点是
Central one being
她不想让加布里埃尔离开这里
that she doesn't want to uproot Gabriella
因为她现在在学校表现很好
now that she's doing so well in school
也交了很多朋友
and making friends.
米凯拉小时候经常搬家
See, Mikayla, she moved around a lot in her youth,
她知道这样做的危害
and she understands the detrimental impact of it.
你还有别的怀疑吗?
You have other suspicions?
我想她是真的相信
I think she truly believes
加布里埃尔和我一起可以过上更好的生活
that Gabriella could have a better life with me.
不是开玩笑 我从她的声音里听出来的
No kidding, I hear it in her voice,
我从从她说话的方式中感受到了
I feel it in her words, the way she said it.
还有 虽然她提到她的男朋友
Also, she mentioned that although her boyfriend
是一个好人
is a good man,
但他有一些令人讨厌的习惯
he has some unsavory habits
她不想让加布里埃尔学坏
she doesn't want to expose Gabriella to them.
你觉得就这些吗?
Do you think that's the lot of it?
可能不是
Probably not.
但就像我说的 为了更好的生活
But like I said, a better life.
你是怎么想的？
How does that make you feel,
是否有可能单独监护加布里拉?
the possibility of having sole custody of Gabriella?
这比我想象的还要兴奋
More elated than I could ever imagine.
所以你要这么做?
So you're doing it?
是的
Yes.
哇 我真为你高兴
Wow, I'm very happy for you,
很抱歉 我们的时间到了
and I'm sorry, but our time is up.
是的 可能吧
Yeah, it might be.
你他妈怎么能不小心说漏了嘴?
How the fuck could you let that slip?
我已经向你道歉了 好吗?
I've already apologized to you about it, okay?
但我真的想要一个答案 而不仅仅是一个道歉
But I really want an answer, not just an apology.
又不是口误
It's not like it was a slip of the tongue,
它是一封电子邮件
it was in an email.
我是说 耶稣基督 埃利斯
I mean, Jesus Christ, Ellis,
- 你站在哪一边啊？ - 听着 别用希望我感恩戴德的
- who's team are you on? - Look, don't talk to me
语气跟我说话
like I'm beholden to you.
我们是联合导演 我们是联合制片人
We're co-directors, we're co-producers.
我滑了一跤
I slipped up,
- 就是这样 - 是的 就是这样
- and that's that. - Yeah, that's that.
直到诺埃尔拿一个带尖刺的烙铁
Until Noel has a spiked soldering iron
塞进你的屁眼两英尺深的地方
shoved two feet up your asshole
在城市广场上让市民
in the town square for the city folk
- 大饱眼福 - 他读信的时候可能
- to feast their eyes on. - It might not even register
都没注意到
with him when he reads it.
当然 当他读到这封信的时候
Of course it'll register with him when he reads it,
事实上 他一看就知道了
in fact, the moment he reads it
因为他不像你那样是个白痴
because he's not a fucking idiot like you are.
他明确表示不能
He made it explicitly clear to not
- 拍他的女儿 - 操你妈的
- film his daughter. - Fuck you, man.
你为什么要背着我
Why are you even communicating with him behind my back
跟他交流?
in the first place?
背着你?
Behind your back?
你说这话也太幼稚了吧
Is this middle school all over again?
就是这样 对吧?
That's it, right?
只是因为我和别人对话的时候
And just because I have a conversation with someone
你不在场
and you're not around it,
这并不意味着它是偷偷的
it doesn't mean it was clandestine.
这不是对话 白痴
This wasn't a conversation, dickface,
这是一封电子邮件 你应该抄送给我
this was an email, and I should
- 一份的 - 好了
- of been CC'd on it. - Fine.
对其他人来说 你会的 好吗?
For the rest of them, you will be, okay?
他是个神经病
He's a goddamn psychopath,
你在用你那愚蠢的废话刺激他!
and you're beating him with your mindless bullshit!
我要保护我的家人
I've got a family to protect,
你最好别让他背叛我们
and you better not give him cause to turn on either of us
都是因为你的粗心!
through your carelessness!
请不要把你的家人暴露在前线
Please, don't throw your family
当敌人步步逼近的时候
in the front lines right when the enemy is approaching.
- 他们不是护盾 - 完全正确
- They're not shields. - Exactly,
- 这就是你要做的 - 不 不
- that's what you're doing. - No, no,
我想说的是不要用它们来重新点燃
all I'm saying is don't use them to reignite
某种他妈的正义的责任感或救世主情结
some fucking righteous sense of duty or savior complex.
哦 哦 是啊 你那样做了
Oh, oh yeah, you do that.
你总是躲在那后面!
You hide behind that always!
你知道记录像诺埃尔这样的人的风险
You knew the risks in documenting someone like Noel,
但你还是心甘情愿地跳上贼船
and you jumped on board willingly with both feet!
计算一下风险
Calculated risks,
现在在你把罐子放在阳光下之前摇晃它
now shaking the can before you leave it in the sun.
我想说的
All I'm saying
别伤害到我和我家人
is don't fuck with me or my family.
- 多么自负的家伙 - 不
- What an ego, man. - No,
这与自负无关
it's not about ego.
是为了完成那该死的电影
It's about finishing the goddamn film
并完好得制作出来
and coming out on the other end in one piece.
不要冒不必要的风险
Do not take needless risks.
你得告诉他你打错了
You need to tell him that you mistyped,
或思考不周
or weren't thinking
- 之类的 - 不 电影里没有插入语
- or something. - No, there's no parenthesis
埃罗尔 就是屏幕上要呈现的一切
in film, Errol, just what's on screen
好吗?
and what isn't, okay?
你不能重写发生的事 伙计
You can't rewrite what happened, man.
这是一个纪录片!
It's a documentary!
我们也参与其中
We're too involved.
我们是故事的一部分
We're part of the story.
该死 我们是故事的主角因为我们知道诺埃尔在哪里
Hell, we are the story 'cause the fuck knows where Noel is.
好了 冷静一下 好吗?
Alright, let's cool off, okay?
我们花点时间
Let's take some time,
几天后我们就开始编辑
we'll start editing in a few days.
我想那时我们就会知道我们真正的立场了
Guess we'll know by then really where we stand.
是啊
Yeah.
拉娜
Lana,
你在那儿站了多久了?
how long have you been standing there?
我只希望这个镜头
I can only hope this lens serves
能帮助你完成这个扭曲的任务
as a merit to the twisted mission that you're on,
你把家人置于危险之中
and the danger that you're putting your family in,
你这个懦夫
you sick fucks.
今天开始编辑啦
It's editing day.
开始编辑!
Editing day!
大家好 今天是编辑的第一天
Hello, everyone, it's day one of editing
我们希望能筛选许多小时的镜头
where we hope to sift through the many hours of footage
看看我们能不能找到
and see if we can't begin to locate
一些关键的 有凝聚力的叙述线索
some key cohesive narrative threads.
艾利斯?
Ellis?
嗯 是的
Uh, yeah,
基本上就是通过首次剪辑
just basically seeing where we are
看看我们的影片怎么样
in our journey through the first cut.
所以 我们来指导这部电影 指导拍摄吧
And so, let's just help guide the movie, guide the shoot.
没错 所以我们白天干这个
Exactly, so we both took the day.
我不确定是否有人知道我们白天还有工作
I'm not sure if anyone even knows that we have day jobs,
他们知道吗?
do they?
我想我们没有提到过 没有
I don't think we mentioned it, no.
我是说 连我都不知道
I mean, I don't even know
老实说 如果我们要用这个
if we're going to use this, to be honest.
可能不会
Probably not.
不管怎样 我们都从各自的工作中挤了出了一天的时间
Anyway, we both took the day from our respective day jobs
我知道我们有多忙的
that you may or may not know that we had.
我们应该告诉他们我们的日常工作是什么吗?
Should we tell them what our day jobs are?
不 我们集中精力 好吗?
No, let's just focus, okay?
我们已经…
We've already...
上帝啊
Jesus.
可能只是邮递员
It's probably just the mailman.
道恩·约翰逊是你的邮递员吗?
Is Dwayne Johnson your mailman?
- 上帝! - 是的 门上好像
- God! - Yeah, there's probably
有个洞
a hole in the door.
我们收到了录像
We have footage.
真的吗?
Seriously?
太棒了 我们来看看
Awesome, let's take a look.
嗯 邮递员一定很着急
Well, the mail guy must of been in a rush
因为当我打开门的时候
'cause he was half way down the block
他已经走了半个街区了
by the time I even opened the door.
没有下雨 没有下雪 也不讲礼貌
Neither rain nor snow nor good manners.
好吧
Okay.
看起来像一张空卡
Looks like an empty card.
也许只有一个视频
Maybe it's just got the one video.
哦 上帝
Oh, Jesus.
怎么了?
What?
这是我的房子
This is my house.
就是我家
This is here.
哦 我的天啊
Oh my God.
怎么 怎么回事？
What, well, what is it?
这是今天拍的
This was shot today.
布赖恩在家 因为他发烧了 没去幼儿园
Brian stayed home from preschool with a fever.
这就是他
That's him now!
今天开始编辑啦
It's editing day.
开始编辑!
Editing day!
大家好
Hello, everyone.
今天是编辑的第一天
It's day one of editing
我们希望能筛选许多小时的镜头
where we hope to sift through the many hours of footage,
看看我们能不能找到
and see if we can't begin to locate
一些关键的 有凝聚力的叙述线索
some key cohesive narrative threads.
艾利斯?
Ellis?
嗯 是的
Uh yeah,
基本上就是看看影片怎么样
it's just basically seeing where we are.
不 不!
No, no!
关于加布里埃尔 我是怎么说的
What did I say about Gabriella!
不要拍到她 不要拍到她 不要拍到她
Off limits, off limits, off limits!
跟我一起说 你这肥猪!
Say it with me, you fat pig!
放开他 诺埃尔!
Get off of him, Noel!
你好 先生们
Hello, gentlemen.
- 嘿 诺埃尔 - 怎么了 诺埃尔?
- Hey, Noel. - What's up, Noel?
听着 我知道经过昨天发生的事
Look, I know we're all a bit shaken up
我们都有点害怕
about what happened yesterday.
说实话 我有点抱歉 好吗?
And to tell you the truth, I'm sort of sorry, okay?
但是 一方面我说着对不起
But, out of one corner of my mouth, I say, "I'm sorry,"
另一方面我又在警告你们
and now the other corner, I say, "I told you so."
我知道我的方法有点极端
I know my methods were a bit drastic,
但有时 这就是我表达细节的方式
but that's how I convey the finer points, sometimes.
我知道
I know,
我们很抱歉挑战了你们底线
and we are so, so sorry for crossing that line.
很抱歉挑战了你的底线 诺埃尔
We were just sorry for crossing that line, Noel.
我们把镜头丢了 所以不会再发生了
The footage is gone, it won't happen again.
我确定不会了
I'm confident it won't,
我知道我们现在的处境相同
I know we're all on the same page, now.
我觉得这是我的错 伙计们
I feel this is really my fault, guys,
- 埃利斯
I mean, - Ellis,
埃利斯 别傻了
Ellis, don't be silly.
不管怎样 我们还是朋友
Either way, it's all under the bridge,
还是朋友 对吧?
we're good, okay?
是的 谢谢你
Okay, thank you
提供的治疗录像
for that therapy footage exclusive, by the way.
非常迷人 深刻
That was fascinating and insightful
并且非常坦诚
and very candid.
效果怎么样？
How's that going?
效果很棒
I can't see how it could be going any better.
索洛夫医生非常棒
Doctor Solov has been absolutely wonderful.
她给我的生活带来了实质性的改变
She's making a substantial difference in my life.
你一个星期要见她几次?
How many times a week are you seeing her?
两次 本来一次就行 但我把它提高到两次
Twice, it was once, but I upped it to two.
一次太少了 间隔太长
One was too few, too far in between.
这些治疗对我具有变革性
The sessions have been transformative,
非常鼓舞人心
and really encouraging
这正是我现在需要的
which is exactly what I need right now.
我可以问一下你的难处吗?
May I ask about the unscratchable itch?
还会冲动 但降低了很多
It's still there, but drastically reduced.
你看 冲动就是冲动
See, impulse is impulse.
但是随着治疗的进行
But with therapy comes understanding,
它可以表现为自我控制
which manifests itself as self-control.
所以呢?
And how so?
我明白了
I'm understanding the how's and why's,
人生经历这张路线图上的一些波折和坎坷的意义
the blips and bumps in this road map of life experiences
是这些造就了我
that make me Me.
所以现在 当我冲动的时候
So now, when there is an impulse,
我不再措手不及
I'm not longer caught off guard,
而是可以停下来
but I can instead stop
然后马上思考
and think almost immediately.
加布里埃尔怎么样了?
And how Gabriella doing?
我的意思是 她意识到了即将到来的转变吗?
I mean, is she aware of the transition to come?
是的 她今天早上才知道 米凯拉告诉了她
Yes, she just found out this morning, Mikayla told her.
她的反应很奇怪 但也不算太怪
Her reaction was odd, but not odd.
她的反应几乎就像到了该交钱的时候
She reacted almost as if it was due time.
- 加布里埃尔的反应? - 是的 是的
- Gabriella's reaction? - Yes, yes,
她表现得好像她知道这一天要到来
she acted as if she knew it was coming,
就像如果这有任何意义的话
as if it was supposed to be, if that makes any sense.
你们之间的联系
That connection between the two of you
一定是难以想象的明显
must be unbelievably palpable,
毕竟她认识你才几个星期
and she's only known you for a matter of weeks.
我知道 我非常感激
I know, I'm extremely grateful.
感觉这一切都是命中注定的
It feels like all this was fated.
诺埃尔 你觉得我们最近什么时候还能再一起
Say Noel, do you think we could get together
进行现场拍摄吗?
and do some live shooting some time soon?
你觉得可以吗?
Would you feel up to that?
当然可以 我感觉好多了
Absolutely, yes, I've been feeling better
我现在就想帮忙
and eager to help now.
但是看看
But look boys,
大自然一直在呼唤我 现在已经留下了一些信息
nature's been calling and has now left several messages,
所以你想见面的时候给我发信息吧
so why don't you message me when you want to meet
到时候我们再解决细节问题
and we can sort out the details.
- 好的 - 好的
- Okay. - Okay,
期待听到最终的计划
looking forward to hearing about the final plans
以及所有的编辑工作
and all the editing.
- 我一会儿再打给你 好吗? - 听起来不错
- I'll talk to you soon, okay? - Sounds good,
- 再见 诺埃尔 - 随后见
- bye, Noel. - Later.
有时我很好奇他的父亲
Sometimes I wonder about his father.
所以呢?
How so?
我只是觉得背后还有很多原因
I just feel like there's more there.
在一次杂货店短暂停留期间 诺埃尔又一次情绪失控
摄像头被落在车里了
虽然没有人受伤 也没有引起太大的骚动
但诺埃尔恶意地伤害了一位上了年纪的顾客
随后他们便立即离开了
我想下车
I want out.
我不知道怎么… 你不知道怎么
I don't know how to... You don't know how,
什么怎么 诺埃尔?
how what, Noel?
- 怎么停下来 - 你应该为你自己
- How to stop. - You have to be proud
感到骄傲
of yourself.
伙计 你刚才表现很好
Man, that was amazing in there.
你想要改变 让自己变得更好
You've wanted to change and better yourself,
你也确实这么做了
and you have.
那刚才我怎么又冲动了？
Then what the hell was that?
为什么我阻止不了自己?
Why can't I stop that?
为什么我不能控制它?
Why can't I control it?
我刚刚的所作所为 可能会让那个女人因为恐惧
I probably took a year off of that woman's life just through
- 而折寿一年 - 不 不会的
- sheer terror alone. - No, that's nonsense,
你知道不可能的
and you know that not to be true.
另外 我们把这叫做恢复 好吗?
Plus, let's call this a recovery, okay?
你才刚刚开始这个过程
You've just begun this process.
你不能指望一夜好转或突然顿悟
You can't expect overnight shifts or sudden epiphanies.
你投入了工作和时间
You're putting in the work and the time.
你已经比原来
you've come leaping and bounding
好多了
from where you once were.
不一样 埃罗尔
It's not the same, Errol.
这是不一样的 一旦你做了
It's different, once you've done it
并且侥幸逃脱 恐惧就消失了
and you've gotten away with it, the fear is gone.
耻辱 犹豫 也都消失了
The stigma, the hesitation, it's gone.
永远消失了
It's gone for good.
一切都在变化
Everything is changes.
会好起来的
It changes.
你会恢复的
You're gonna be okay,
不仅仅是为了你自己
and not just for your own sake.
我必须要恢复
I have to be.
我必须这样 不是吗?
I quite have to be, don't I?
于是她走了出来
So she comes outside.
记住 她刚搬进来
And keep in mind, she just recently moved in,
所以她开始认识每个人
so she's getting to know everyone,
她在找方向
she's getting her bearings,
- 你知道的 - 我也很高兴
- you know. - It's so wonderful
能听到你家人的消息
to hear about the rest of your family, too.
哦 阿丽莎 她很棒
Oh, Alisha, she's wonderful.
她是个伟大的人
She's a great spirit.
- 你妈妈? - 是的
- Mom's side? - Yes.
她走到外面 这是在佛罗里达
So she comes outside, and this is in Florida.
她看到这个老妇人正在路对面
And she sees this old woman harvesting these oranges
收橘子
across the way.
像阿丽莎一样热情友好
Being all bubbly and friendly as Alisha is,
她几乎是奔向这个女人
she practically runs towards this woman
并介绍自己
and introduces herself.
她说 嗨 我叫阿丽莎·摩根
She says, "Hi, my name's Alisha Morgan",
我刚搬进来 你叫什么名字?
"I just moved in, what's your name?"
老妇人看着她 点点头
The old woman looks at her, she nods for a second,
并说道 杰西·皮肯
and says, "Jess Picken."
所以阿丽莎说 很高兴见到你 杰西·皮肯
So, Alisha says, "Nice to meet you, Jess Picken."
在接下来的几个星期里 每当阿丽莎看到这个女人
And for a few weeks, every time that Alisha sees this woman,
她会说 嗨 杰西·皮肯 或者 早上好 杰西·皮肯
she says, "Hi, Jess Picken," or "Good morning, Jess Picken."
大约一个月后 女房东来了
then about a month later, the landlady comes by.
阿丽莎有个流水槽什么的
Alisha had a runny sink or something.
老太太走了出来
And the old lady comes out,
女房东大叫 早上好 薇娜
and the landlady yells out, "Good morning, Verna."
阿丽莎很困惑 她说
And Alisha's all confused, she said,
你为什么叫杰西·维纳?
"Why did you just call Jess Verna?"
女房东摇了摇头
Landlady shakes her head,
阿丽莎继续说 不是 不是
and Alisha continues, says, "No, no",
我问过她叫什么名字
"I asked her what her name was,"
她说是杰斯·皮肯
"and she it was Jess Picken."
女房东突然大笑起来
Landlady bursts out laughing.
她向阿丽莎解释道
She explains to Alisha
那个女人当时可能在说 我在采摘
that the woman probably said, "Just Picking."
她会从树上摘橘子
She takes the oranges from the tree
并在周日的农贸市场上出售
and sells them at a farmer's market on the Sundays.
所以 在这个月的大部分时间里
And so, for the better part of the month,
阿丽莎一直把这个女人叫做我在采摘
Alisha had been calling this woman Just Picking.
诺埃尔
So Noel,
你有什么希望或目标想要去
what are your hopes and/or goals
学习和发现吗？
of things to learn and discover
在这部纪录片剩下的制作过程中
throughout the rest of the making of this documentary,
既然我们已经走了这么远 现在可以放松一点吧?
now that we've come so far and are winding down a bit?
你知道的 这是个很好的问题 埃罗尔
You know, that's a solid question, Errol.
我已经学到了很多
I've learned a whole lot,
以及在这个过程中我想学到什么
and what I wanted to learn during this process.
现在 就是将我学到的东西
Now, it'll be about the implementation
变成现实
of what it is that I've learned.
你愿意和我们一起去旅行吗?
Are you pleased that you went on this journey with us?
真心愿意
I truly am.
我欠你们很多
I owe you gentlemen a whole lot,
我打算找个办法还你们
and I plan on finding a way to pay you back.
不 我们很感激你 永远感激你
No, we are indebted and forever grateful to you.
作为父亲 一个新爸爸
If you have one goal as a father,
如果你有一个目标 会是什么?
and a new father at that, what would it be?
不要做我自己
To not be mine.
不要失败 不要软弱 要坚强
To not fail, to not be weak, but to be strong.
不只是为了我自己 而是为了我和我女儿
And not just for one, but for two.
如果你现在能对加布里埃尔提一个
If you could say one thing to Gabriella right now
对于未来的生活建议 你会怎么说?
as life advice going forward, what would you say?
爱你自己
Love yourself.
珍惜你自己 珍惜你内心的一切
Cherish who you are, all your inner workings,
你所有的小动作 等等
all your little tics, everything.
不要害怕任何人
And don't fear anyone,
尤其是不要害怕自己
especially don't fear yourself.
现在的孩子和你在她这个年纪的时候有什么不同?
How have kids changed now from when you were her age?
孩子就要像孩子一样
Kids need to be kids.
但是今天 他们很少有时间做自己
But today, they have much less time to be themselves.
他们长得更快
They grow up so much faster,
他们很快就会失去纯真
they lose their innocence sooner.
我有个同事叫厄尔
I have this friend at work, his name's Earl.
他说看着他十几岁的女儿晚上出去
He talks about what a nightmare it is
就像一场噩梦
watching his teenage daughter go out at night.
他说的一件事总是让我难以忘怀
One thing he said that always stuck with me
就是他不会让她
is that he won't let her
成为草莓味儿的塑料
become strawberry-flavored plastic.
超级甜蜜 假装无辜
Super-sweet, faking an innocent facade,
成年和世俗的错误脉络
with a faulty venire of adulthood
都浓缩在一个微小的框架里
and worldliness all condensed
但其实什么都不知道
in a tiny frame that really knows neither.
所有的穷人
Of all the poor generations,
他们以为在18岁的时候就已经知道了
they thought they had it all figured out by age 18,
结果却发现他们不具备
only to find out that they weren't equipped
处理现实世界所需的能力
what was needed to handle the real world.
这就是为什么我不只是加布里埃尔的父亲
And that's why I'm not just gonna be a father to Gabriella.
我想成为她的守护天使
I want to be her guardian angel,
我也会成为她最好的朋友
and I'm gonna be her best friend for a while there, too.
这很可爱 诺埃尔
That's lovely, Noel.
我把她看成是黑暗中的一丝光明
I guess the silver lining
毕竟我在一个没有爱和荒凉的地狱里长大
and growing up in a loveless and desolate hell
又看着它把我变成怪物
and watching it make a monster out of me is that
我才一步步变成现在这个样子
I know how I got here.
这是值得积累的宝贵知识
And that's valuable knowledge to accrue.
我想我要卡维特利香肠
I think I'll have the Cavetelli Sausage.
哦 不错的选择
Ooh, good choice.
有点多 但是…
A bit much, but...
但我能吃完
But I'll bite.
是啊 你能
Yeah, well, you bite.
我想我自己去拿点野松露蛋吐司吧
I think I'll get the Ino Truffle Egg Toast for myself.
不错啊
Good choice.
好吧 我准备好了
Well, I'm ready.
先生们 我们干一杯吧?
Gentlemen, my I propose a toast?
为诺埃尔干杯
To Noel,
感谢你的开放和无私
for being so open and this selfless.
为你 为加布里埃尔 为了你们的未来
To you, to Gabriella and to your future.
- 干杯 - 干杯
- Cheers. - Cheers.
干杯
Cheers.
诺埃尔 你没事吧?
Noel, you okay?
诺埃尔?
Noel?
诺埃尔?
Noel?
晚上好 你这狗杂种
Good evening, you sack of severed horse sticks.
在我来之前你给我闭嘴
You shut up before I come over there
你摆着个臭脸 把房间都搞臭了
and fuck-start your face until the whole room stinks,
你的衬衫就像我的蛋蛋
and your shirt runs off like with the stench
- 一样臭 - 耶稣基督!
- of my balls. - Jesus Christ!
有什么新闻吗 克拉姆?
What's the news, crumb?
你为什么不能评论一下
Why don't you can the commentary
然后继续吃你的饭?
and keep munching on your whop kipple?
你还记得我吗?
You remember me?
- 不 - 哦 拜托 四年级的时候
- No. - Aww, come on, fourth grade,
你还记得我吗 四年级
do you remember me, fourth grade?
你在下象棋时作弊了
You cheated at a game of checkers
让我看起来像个十足的傻瓜
to make me look like an utter fool
就在马洛里水域前
in front of Mallory Waters.
马洛里水域!
Mallory Waters!
现在看看你 你这个无赖!
And now look at you, you scoundrel!
一个有着两条腿
Looks like any hussy with two legs
并且大腿间有着水汪汪的裂缝
and a watery crevice between her thighs
胸部比你大的女人就满足你了吗?
and a chest bigger than yours will do, won't it?
她是妓女吗?
Is she a hooker?
她闻起来像松鼠
She smells like squirrels fucking.
生活的教训 女人
Life lesson, doll,
不要从CVS买香水!
don't buy your perfume from the CVS!
我应该用钩针锤敲碎她的小红宝石
I should pound her little ruby starfruit
然后把账单寄给你
like a crochet mallet and send you the bill afterwards.
哦 这能消除
Oh, does that get the reproach
你从大便里喷出的污迹吗?
you squirting out of your scatch?
我应该用干草叉把你的内脏扯下来
I should rip your innards out with a pitchfork
挂在纽约最高的纪念碑上!
and hang 'em on New York's tallest monuments!
这是现代艺术 宝贝!
Modern art, baby!
不 站在那儿 我不会碰他的!
No, stand there, I'm not gonna touch him!
你这个人渣
You scum.
一!
One!
二!
Two!
三!
Three!
你应该被射进袜子里
You should of been shot into a sock,
或者你母亲的喉咙里
or your mother's practice throat,
你不该来
not to be left to infiltrate
这样的高级餐厅
fine dining establishments like this,
你和你妻子都不能
with your vial putrid immorality and your whore wife!
你要统治我 你要统治我吗?
You're gonna king me, you wanna king me?
你这个人渣 你这个婊子!
You scum, you harlot!
你这头蠢猪!
You swine!
就像黑死病老鼠身上的跳蚤一样
The black plague started with fleas on a rat.
照照镜子 看看你这个德行
Take a look in the mirror, and tell me what you see.
看看吧 你这个人渣
Take a look, you scum,
- 看看吧! - 来吧
- take a look! - Come on.
好好生活吧 婊子!
Get a life, bitch!
来吧 来吧 来吧
Come on, come on, come on.
现在 我们正在对这个漂亮的娃娃屋
Right now, we're putting the final touches
进行最后的修饰
of the beginning touches of this beautiful doll house.
看看那个 亲爱的
Look at that, honey.
给他们看看我的画
Show them my pictures.
谁 什么?
Who, what?
- 给他们看我的画 - 给谁看看你的画?
- Show them my pictures. - Show who the pictures?
哦
Oh,
你想让摄影师看看你的画 好的
you want to show the camera people your pictures, okay.
我们看看 好多画啊
Let's see, more pictures.
看看这个
Look at that.
看看这个
Look at that.
当我年轻的时候
See, when I was young,
每当我画东西时
whenever I drew something or offered,
在我画完以后
so after I created anything really,
总是对我的名字做一些奇怪的事情
I'd always do something odd with my name.
我可能会用不同的方式签名或者倒过来拼写
I'd sign it differently or spell it backwards
或者做一些改变
or change something about it.
看来加布里埃尔也喜欢这么做
Seems like Gabriella likes to do the same thing.
看看这个
Look at that.
亲爱的 你在哪儿看到的这个?
Honey, where did you see this?
你在图片上看到的这个吗?
Did you see this in a picture?
是你自己想出来的?
Is it from your noggin?
自己想的 是吗?
From your head, yeah?
看看这个
Look at that.
看到了吗?
See?
那些后门现在关上了
Those back doors are closed right now.
也许这是个征兆 天堂
Maybe it's a sign, paradise.
这是一个征兆吗?
Could it be a sign?
门关注了
The doors are closed.
去墓地拜访诺埃尔的父亲
诺埃尔 诺埃尔
Noel, Noel!
诺埃尔 每天早上你怎么能起这么早?
Noel, how the hell do get up this early every morning?
你会习惯的
You get used to it.
这些都好棒啊
These are awesome.
我现在很清楚 作为那个烦人精的父亲
I'm fully aware I'm being that annoying father right now
我现在给你看这些照片 你根本不在乎
showing you these pictures you don't give a crap about.
但坦率地说 我才不管你在不在乎
But frankly, I don't give a shit.
我们当然在乎啊
Of course we care.
你居然这么快就开始喜欢上了
It's fascinating how quickly you become doting.
四周前 如果有人想这么对我
Four weeks ago, if someone tried to do this to me,
我真想拔掉他们的喉咙
I'd want to rip out their larynx
给他们的妈妈看看
and show it to their mother.
我只是想把感觉说清楚
Not literally, just to be clear.
- 难以置信啊 - 到底是什么?
- That's unbelievable. - What, exactly?
不 再说一遍
No, say that again.
- 说什么? - 对着摄像机说…
- Say what? - For the camera about...
- 说什么? - 关于你的日常生活
- About what? - About your routine.
哦
Oh.
我每天早上都做同样的事情
I've had the same routine every single morning
七年了
for seven years now.
雷打不动吗
With no change, whatsoever.
所以它才变成七年来的日常啊
Well, that's what makes it routine,
- 埃罗尔 - 是的 我知道 但还是很惊讶
- Errol. - Yeah, I know, but still.
给我们具体说说吧
Take us through it.
我每天早上4:37醒来
Every morning, I wake up at 4:37 a.m.
为什么?
Why?
我不知道
I don't know,
因为已经过了凌晨4点35分了
because it's later than 4:35 a.m.
所以在我心里 从心理上说 我觉得这样就可以
So in my mind, psychologically, I'm gaming the system
多睡两分钟
by getting two minutes of extra sleep.
此外 早上4点40分太晚了
Besides, 4:40 a.m. is too late.
我不想再35分或者40分的时候起床
Operating on fives and 10s, it's arbitrary to me.
- 这样可以吗? - 当然
- It's good? - Yeah.
那就好
Good.
你很快就会失去光亮了，伙计。
You're gonna be losing light soon here, man.
哦 天都快黑了
Oh, we're losing light.
为什么诺曼会
Why the hell did Norman
让大家下班这么早?
send everybody off early?
苹果街120号明天就要完工了
120 Apple Street's got to get finished by tomorrow.
他怎么不再留下我们谁一起工作呢？
He couldn't of left one other guy?
我想他认为我们已经足够了
I suppose he thought we were sufficient.
顺便问一下 你喂了这家伙什么 摇头丸吗?
By the way, what are you feeding this guy, anyway, ecstasy?
有一半时间 他笑得像个疯子一样
And half the time, he's smiling like a goddamn lunatic.
没人会在工作时笑得出来吧
Nobody smiles at work.
也许他马上就要做成什么了
Maybe he's on the verge of something
这让他很开心 我不知道
that makes him happy, I don't know.
- 也许吧 - 是啊
- Maybe. - Yeah.
尽管如此 我觉得他变得
Still, I think he's becoming
- 怪怪的 - 变得疯狂?
- squirrely. - Squirrely?
是的
Yeah.
你为什么要这么说诺埃尔?
Why do you have to say that about Noel?
我想我很尴尬 我能说什么呢?
I'm squirrely I guess, what can I say?
我不知道哪个更糟
I don't know which one's worse,
微笑的诺埃尔 还是另一半时间
this Noel or the Noel that half the time
寒气逼人的诺埃尔
looks like he could kill a mother fucker.
我只是担心有时候
I'm just concerned that at some point,
我们只是为了拍摄而拍摄 你知道吗?
we'll be shooting just to shoot, you know?
我是说 我不想花费金钱
I mean, I don't want to spend the money,
或者更重要的 时间在逐渐流逝
or more importantly, the time continuing
即使我们拥有足够的金钱
when we really do have enough.
是的 我完全同意
Yeah, I completely agree.
这很有趣
It's funny.
有几次我差点说
There's been a few times where I've almost said,
结束了
"That's a wrap."
但我觉得现在就是那一刻
But I feel like this really is that moment.
肯定是
Well, it must be,
或者现在 我们不会再拍电影了 对吧?
or now, we wouldn't be filming, right?
正如我们常说的 把一切都记录下来
Document everything, as we always say
因为你永远不知道
because you never know.
哦 我的天啊 哦 我的天啊!
Oh my God, oh my God!
- 拉娜? - 怎么了?
- Lana? - What's happening?
哦 上帝 哦 上帝
Oh God, oh God.
- 你在看什么? - 这是什么!
- What are you watching? - What is this!
这是什么 你怎么了!
What is this, what is wrong with you!
为什么我们的房子里有这个
Why is this in our house!
诺埃尔 虽然我很喜欢
So Noel, as much as I enjoy
权衡我在中学担任
weighing the positives and negatives of my potentially
教练时的利与弊
taking the coaching job at the middle school,
你有什么重要的事要告诉我们?
what's the big announcement that you wanted to tell us?
先生们 这是我们最后的通信
Gentlemen, this will be our final correspondence,
至少暂时是这样
at least for a while.
我一直在计划一个大灾难
I've been planning something catastrophically large,
我得到一个很好的机会
and there's a good chance this will be
所以这是我最后一次和你们说话
the last time I will talk to you.
你是什么意思?
How do you mean?
恐怕我不能细说
I'm afraid I can't elaborate.
我只好把它埋在我心里
I'll have to leave it there.
听起来很吓人 诺埃尔
That sounds rather menacing, Noel,
尤其是在你已经恢复以后
especially after the positive.
哦 不 我确实恢复了 我向你们保证
Oh no, the positive is still there, I assure you.
这只是
This is just
我治疗的最后一段 如果你想知道的话
that last leg of my therapy, if you will.
你刚才说灾难
Did you say, "Catastrophic,"
还是 灾难性的大事？
or, "Catastrophically large?"
- 他说的是大事 是后者 - 是这样说的吗 是吗?
- He said, "Large," after. - Did he, did you?
我们可以说
Let's just say this will be
这是我一生中最重要的贡献
the most significant contribution of my life.
我已经为此努力了很长时间了
I've been working towards this for a very long time, now.
你会陷入困境吗?
Will you be in the lurch,
还是说你从我这里得到了你想要的一切?
or did you get everything that you need to get from me?
有意思 诺埃尔 那天晚上我们还在讨论这个
Funny, Noel, we were just discussing that the other night.
我们的结论是 是的
And we have concluded that yes, indeed,
我们已经得到了我们想要的一切
we've captured everything that we wanted to.
很华丽 好吧
Splendid, well,
我们不要把这个说得太沉重
let's not make this too heavy of a goodbye
因为这是在Skype上的
Skype：一种聊天工具 类似中国的QQ 微信
since it's on Skype and all,
反正我对它们不是很感兴趣
and I'm not really too keen on them, anyway.
你还会再联系我们吗？
Will you be in touch?
是的 当时机成熟时
Yes, when the time is right,
我会联系你们的
I will be in touch.
照顾好自己 诺埃尔
Take care of yourself, Noel.
更重要的是
And more importantly,
照顾好加布里埃尔
take care of Gabriella.
知道啦
Check and check.
哇哦 哇哦 等等 等等
Whoa, whoa, wait, wait.
这个故事要怎么结束?
How will this story end?
你的故事要怎么结束?
How will your story end?
用最快乐和最流行的旋律
With the happiest and poppyest of melodies.
祝福你们和你们的家人
The best to both of you and your families.
谢谢 还有什么要说的吗?
Thank you, any final words for us?
我是诺埃尔·罗斯 我已退出拍摄
This is Noel Rose, signing off the grid.
911电话 晚上8:12
亲爱的 求你不要
Honey, please.
拉娜：呃… 是的
有个男人 他的名字是诺埃尔
他有个漂亮的女儿 名字叫加布里埃尔
他叫诺埃尔·罗斯
Look don't do this.
听着 别这样
You don't know Noel like I do.
你没有我了解诺埃尔
我有充分的理由怀疑他可能……
他很危险 他是一个精神病患者
我知道的... 你不要... 埃罗尔
他喜欢加布里埃尔
He loves Gabriella.
宝贝 求你听我解释
Baby please, just listen to me.
把电话挂了 听我解释
Just hang up the phone, and listen to me.
听我说几句
Just talk to me for a second,
求你了拉娜
please Lana.
小女孩并不安全
我为她的生命担忧 他参加了一场大奖赛 庞蒂亚克大奖赛
Baby, just listen to me.
宝贝 听我解释好不好
No, don't.
不 不要
他的车牌是SDQ-4411 他住在布朗街1919号 公寓号是5H
Babe don't do it.
宝贝 别这样
Just hang up the phone and talk to me.
把电话挂了 跟我谈谈
Just hang up their phone and talk to me, please.
快把电话挂了 跟我谈谈 求你了
请你们快点
一 二 三
One, two, three,
坐这里
there ya go.
我帮你系好安全带 好吗？
Let's get you buckled in, huh?
你冷不冷?
Are you warm enough, yeah?
系得紧不紧?
It's not too tight?
好了
Okay.
耶!
Yay!
你觉得把它放在这里可以吗?
Do you think this is a really temporary place for it?
那我放了啊
I do.
加比 我能问你点事吗?
Gabby, can I ask you something without you being afraid?
你害怕吗?
Are you afraid?
和你在一起我从不害怕 爸爸
I'm never afraid when I'm with you, daddy.
我爱你 加布里埃尔
I love you, Gabriella.
我也爱你
I love you, too.
你准备好了吗?
Are you ready to go?
好吧
Alright.
2016年 我在布思贝港犯了四起谋杀案
本顿警官 警号：39692 案卷号：AH00154
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埃罗尔：我出来的时候她就17岁了
我不知道我是谁 也不知道我会变成什么样
埃罗尔：我出来的时候她就17岁了
我不知道我是谁 也不知道我会变成什么样
警探: 就这些吗？
埃罗尔：当他把你当朋友的时候 你就知道他是个什么样的人了...
警探：你想要…谈谈你对所发生的一切还有什么遗憾吗?
有什么可以帮你的吗?
埃罗尔：我很遗憾电影永远无法结束了 永远永远
录像还再 设备... 那些闪闪发光的设备...
永远无法再打开了 碎片永远丢失
元素永远无法拼凑在一起 现在只有一种东西可以使用它 那就是…能力
但他离开了...
警探：好吧 那就这样 你的时间到了
埃罗尔：是... 时间到了
我本打算从头开始
I was gonna start at the beginning.
我本想从…
I was gonna start at the...
听你这么说很有意思 诺埃尔
Interesting to hear you say that, Noel,
因为这都是关于感知的 对吧?
because it is all about perception, right?
我认为对于我们电影制作人和观众来说
I think for us as filmmakers and for the audience
这很重要
it's important.
不 事实上 这是绝对必要的
No, actually, it's absolutely imperative
我们不会含糊其辞
that we don't try to mince words
或者躲藏起来
or hide behind anything that we could possibly hide behind
我们应该感到威胁
should we feel threatened
或漫无目的吗
or uncertain of purpose or direction.
我的意思是 我们已经详细讨论过了 诺埃尔
I mean, we've spoken about that at length, Noel.
最后 我要问
So, to that end, I have to ask,
你认为自己是连环杀手吗?
do you consider yourself to be a serial killer?
你承认吗?
Does that apply to you?
连环杀手这个词
The term serial killer.
最近人们
Society, people these days,
对具体敏锐的学习某样东西的兴趣
they have too vague of an interest
太模糊了
in the specific acute learning of something.
获得知识和有一个坚定的理解
It's far more superior, but far more difficult
更高级 但也更困难
to acquire knowledge and have a firm understanding
而不是应用一个标签
as opposed to applying a label
然后调整你的思维去看标签
and then conditioning your mind
也不是它背后的东西
to see the label, not what's behind it.
是的 根据定义 你可以给我一个标签
So yes, by definition, you could apply a label to me
你就会很准确
and you would be accurate.
但这都是冲动 不是吗?
But it's all impulse, isn't it?
如果我把你的冲动拉到街道中央
If I was to drag your impulses in the middle of the street,
我想我能
I think I could do a swell job
把你变成魔鬼的后代
of turning you out to be some spawn of the devil
或令人讨厌的精神病
or unsavory spirit.
看 这些标签 它们创造了模糊的概念
See, these labels, they create vague ideas,
用模糊的概念
and with vague ideas,
你可以把任何人装扮成
you can make anyone out to be
一个怪物或恶魔
a monster or a demon.
那是人们不理解
That's what people do when they don't understand
或者当他们拒绝做的时候 才会做的事 所以我也不觉得被冒犯了
or when they wish not to, so I am not offended by it.
看 它为这一类的人
See, it creates a troublesome state of affairs
制造了一种麻烦的状态
for those who fall under that category.
尤其是那些不喜欢的人
Especially for those who don't.
你有什么规则吗?
Do you have any rules?
嗯哼
Mm-hm.
不要女人 不要孩子
No women and no children.
我只是在开玩笑
I'm just kidding.